Out of sorts

 Today I turned 84 and I'm not dead.  I haven't had any more portentousthoughts or dreams or images.  I'm sort of disapointed.  I've run out of things to occupy me, things I want or need or should do.  With nothing much to do I see no reason to be here at all.  I'm doing nobody any good.  I was really hoping those might realy be portents of death.  I don't usually get images of death coming into my head like that, it ought to mean something, but whateer it means apparently it didn't mean that I'm about to die.  Not immediately anyway.   I got the usual phohne alls, a few cards in the mail and slipped to my door.  That's nice but I dn't deserve anyone's attention.  I stay holed up liike a hermit?  A mole?  Holed up anyway.

I know the nation is under judgmetn and I know I have an obligation to get that maessage at least written down.  I can' do much more than that.  If Elon Musk wanted to finance the effort I could mayb e have a few billion printed messages droped across the country from an airplane or something like that, but all I can do is write it here and if anyone sees it, especially someone who wants to spread the word further.  hooray.  But that's really all I can do.    I'm still hoping for Trump's efforts to save us abbut if we are under god's judgment I know it can't accomplish what we'd all like it to accomplish.  They who hate you will rule over you, God said to the erring Israelites, and He could be saying it to us now.  We see them gathering around us, sleeper cells and all that, for years now, and nothing is stopping it.  trump is working on it but not directly and anyway the only thing that would take care of the problem , if anything can at lthis late date, ias repentance from evdrything the nation has done to deservie it, confesion and repeaentance, doing away with the offense that is bring ging down God's wrath on us.

If I had ayobe to share my interest in creationist issues that would be a reason to tay alivew, but I don't.

Somethign g Bret Weinstein said recently hit me as something I could answer here but it's just a side issue and I'm not fired up about it.  He said how the idea of the Jews regarding themselves as God's chosen people bothers him because every people's God regards them as a special people.  And I just want to say that's not true.  He is just assuming it.  there isn't anything in any of the religions that I know of that even hints at a chosen people in that vague sense or certainly the sense in which the biblical God made the Jews His chocsen.    It's uique.  He made a covenant, an actual legal agreement, with Abraham, to make of him a great people and make them a blessing to all nations.    It's not just having a people of His own He treats as special at all, He has a purose for the raising up of a special people.  

He is the one true God and He wanted a people to represent Him to all the peoples of the earht, learn  His waysa, learn about Him, learn His minsd and His intentions, obey His laws and lteach them to all their generations and to other people.  

AND, to be the people from whom would come the Messiah, the Saior He promised to send to the world as far back as Adam and Eve, to save the world from the sin and death that their act of disoebedience brought upon all their descendants.

Of course Bret doesn't beinlieve in God so he feels he can say anything he wants if it fits into his evolutionary lens worldview, and of course the idea that all religions are the same at bottom is just standard glop from that oint of view.  All are chosen, the Jews not chosen in any special way at all.

Even though I think I want to die I'm not really depressed.  Just sort of fidgety and out of sorts whatever that means.  

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