I thank God that He has led me into this period of spiritual renewal that I have been pursuing for the last few months. I thank Him in particular for the many powerful preachers of the gospel that have been made available on the internet in audio form, that great ones, the old ones,, Spurgeon and Ryle but also Owen and the Puritans are available, the ones who preach the gospel with no frills whatever, no silliness as we might get from one of today's preachers.
I've been awakened in a way I would never have suspected was necessary or possible, and since it's coming to me at the age of eighty it is especially terrifying to be finding out just how much I've frittered away my Christian life and don't even have a really clear idea of whether I'm saved. I've had such concerns fro time to time over the years but they've been brought home to me with a terrifying power in these few months of intense pursuit of the whitehot core of Christianity.
Nothing else matters now but seeking assurance of my salvation and if I don't have salvation seeking to receive it. I've been looking into the pit of Hell and am not yet sure my faith is secure enough to keep me from it.
Yes I know the gospel and if I didn't know it well enough before I certainly do now that I've been listening to all these great preachers. What I'm told today is that it's a matter of looking to Christ in simple faith and that i of course absolutely true.
Here's another deep one from J.C. Ryle: Our Sins - J. C. Ryle / Old Paths - YouTube
Here's the most encouraging message I've found so far: Spurgeon, Not Beyond Hope
Discouragement Due to Lack of Assurance - Puritan William Bridge 1648 - YouTube
Shaven and Shorn, but not Beyond Hope! - Charles Spurgeon Sermon (Judges 16:22) - YouTube
