According to my eye doctor I am now legally blind. I'm in touch with an organization called Services for the Blind that may have some mechanical aids that will help me continue to read some things for a while at least, wait and see. What I'd really like is someone who could adjust the settings on my computer to enlarge print on the menus, blond it, and change everything to white on black because the white glare is hard on my eyes. But I don't think that organization offters that help. My son in law enlarged tghe cursor images a few years ago which helped a lot but he' hasn't been around to help with other things during the COVID period and probably won't be for a while yet.
Meanwhile the Lord helps me make outg some words when I ask Him for the help although it's all getting fainter and fainter.
Anyway.
What's on my minjd for this post is the afterlife, mine and others'. I mentioned a few posts down that I'd been through a period of doubting y salvation and it was pretty terrifying. I'd never really thought about the reality of Hell before and it hit me very hard. What if I'm beyond being saveable> it can happen. I'd heard enough of the best teachers saying that in many ways, how many who think they are Christians will not be saved in the end but go to Hell and what a shock it will be if they don't wake up and recognize the problem and try to remedy it. If it Can BE REMEDIED, AND IT USUALLY CAN, THE UNFORGIVEABLE SITUATION IS PRETTY RARE.
bUT MANY WON'T GET THE MESSAGE. aND OF COURSE BESIDES THOSE THERE ARE THE VAST MAJORITY OF THE HUMAN RACE WHO WILL NOT BE SAVED. i FINALLY HAD SOME REASSURING EXPERIENCES THAT REINSTATED MY TRUST IN MY OWN SALVATIONM, AND i'VE BEEN GROWING IN THAT TRUST AND AM VERY HAPPY NOW, GROWING INTO DEEPER LOVE OF gOD AS i CONTINUE TO SPEND TIME ON GOOD PREACHING AND LISTENING TO THE bIBLE.
bUT THE THOUGHT OF ALL THOSE PEOPLE GOING TO hELL, ALONG WITH MANY i KNOW HAVE ALREADY GONE THERE, RECENTLY GOT TO ME AND i CRIED A LOT ABOUT IT. i DON'T THINK i'D EVER THOUGHT OF hELL AS A REALITY BEFORE AND NOW IT'S BECOME A VERY SCARY REALITY TO ME. i DON'T DO MUCH EVANGELIZING, JUST SPORADICALLY NOW AND THEN, BYUT NOW i WAYT TO TRY TO DO MORE IF i CAN.
i HAD A COUSIN WHO REFEUSED TO BELIEVE AND LIKED TO SAY THAT hELL IS REALLY JUST IN THIS LIFE. bUT THEN ON HIS DEATH BED HE WAS OBVIOUSLY AFRAID OF DYING, KEPT GETTING OUR OF BED AND DIDN'T WANT TO LIE DOWN. i*T WAS TOO LATE FOR HIM TO BECOME A BELIEVER EVEN IF HE COULD HAVE. yOU CAN'T JUST MOUTH THE WORDS AND EXPECT TO BE SAVED, SALVATION IS FROM THE HEARLT. nO DOUBT SOME HAVE BEEN SAVED AT THE LAST MINUTE, THE THIEF ON THE CROSS WHO SAW THAT jESUS WAS THE cHRIST WAS ASAVED, BUT CLEARLY THAT WAS FROM hHIS HEARD AND THAT'S VERY UNUSUAL.
sO IT'S BEEN HITTING ME THAT THERE ARE ONLY TWO OPTIONS AFTER DEATH, hEAVEN OR hELL, AND THERE IS NOTHING ELSE. aND THE ONLY WAY TO hEAVEN INS THROUGH FAITH IN jESUS cHRIST
S DEATH ON THE CROSS TO PAY FOR OUR SINS. THAT'S IT. "i AM THE WAY, THE TRUTH AND THE LIFE, NOBODY COMES TO THE fATHER BUT BY mE." hE'S THE "DOOR" THERE IS NO OTHER WAY TO SALVATION. iT'S SOMETHING A cHRISTIAN "KNOWS" BUT i COULD SAY i NEVER REALLY KNEW IT UNTIL RECENTLY.
Oh good grief, I think I've been wqriting in all capts. Sorry, I can't fix it now. I don't know how must of the text is that way. Sorry.
So now everyone I knw who is not a Christian, and even some who are for that matter, I see as destined for Hell and I desperately want to turn them away from it, but there is s8uch resistance to the gospel message it's hard to know how to approach it. I'm praying about it.
Very sad thoughts. Everybody I see now seems to me to be living a totally futile life if they aren't true believers in Christ. Ande that's cours the mjajority of humanity. Walking around in a fog, living for short term objectives if any objectives at all, wandering in a mist of ignorance. Why am I only now coming to see things this way? And most of them won't accept the gospel no matter how it's presented to them. Some will though, they have to be the focus.
