Even the young men shall faint. But they who wait upon the LORDD shall renew their srength; they shall rise on wings of eagles, they shall run and not walk, they shall walk and not faint.
That's from Isaiah forty something. I'm also rememberinga line from Psalms somewerhe I think that says They shall bear fruit even in old age.
Sinc I'm in old age I'm clinging to that one. I've wanted to die off and on for years now because I think there's nothing for me to do here as I grow blind and lose more and more options in other ways as well for accomplishing anything, as even writing this blog has become almost impossible. I'm grateful to the Lord that I can still more or less dothis although since I can't read it I'm tying blind and make an awful lot of mistakes I an only hope dn't too seriously garble up the message. Usually they don't seem to, when I can listen back on the Read Aloud function to find out. So that is a lot to be grateful for.
But this is to be bout Charlie Kirk. I was surprised at how hard it hit me. I like Charlie Kirdk, he's on the radio here from nien to eleven at night and I often hear at least some of it. But I didn't have much of a sense of him as a person or personalitiy. I saw some of his debates on college campuouses that would come up from time to time on You Tube. To my mind he was one of many patriotic oivoices on the right to celebrate, but he didn't stand out from the crowd in my mind. Of course to hear he'd been shot wuld be upsetting, but I was surprised at HOW upsetting it was. I sank into a very sad mood. I prayed hard during that first hour for his survival.
But strange things ere already happening. I kept having the thought as I prayed that maybe it would be a good thing if he died, maybe that would get some TTENTION FOR THE CAUSE, BUT i FELT ABOUT BAD ABOUT THINKING THAT AND WULD APOLOGIZE TO TEH lORD FOR THINKING IT AND TRY TO REDOUBLE MY EFFORTS TO PRAY. tHEN HE DIED AND i CRIED.
bY THE STRANGE STUFF i MEAN EVIDENCE OF THE HAND OF gOD IN IT, EVEN IN MY OWN LITTLE HEARING OF IT AND LITTLE KNOWLEDGE OF HIM AND LITLE APPRECIATION OF HIM. i HAD BEEN DOING SOMETHING IN ANOTHER WROOM BUT FINISHED UP AND SAT DOWN TO LISTEN TO THE MORNING TALK SHOW ON THE RADIO AND THE MOMENT i TURNED ON THE RADIO OUT CAME THE WORDS "bREAKING NEWS, cHARLIE kIRDK HAS BEEN SHOT." thAT MAY NOT BE A VERY BIG THING BUT THAT KIND OF PRECISE TIMING USUALLY ONLY HAPPEN S WHEN SONETHING IS EVERY IMPORTANT TO ME OR ON MY IND, THE SITTING DOWN AND TURNING ON THE RADIO EXACTLY TAT THE MOMENT BEFORE THE WORDS bREAKING nEWS COME ON. eXACTLY. tHEN vINCE cOLOGNASE, THE TALK SHOW HOST SPOKE ON THE SUBJECT UNTIL THE ENDING OF HIS SHOW NOW LONG AFTEREWARD, WHILE AS FAR AS WE KNEW cHARLIE WAS STILL ALIBVE AND WE WERE ALL PRAYING FOR HIM. tHEN i WAS HAVIG ALL THESE THOUGHTS ABOUT HOW MAYBE IT WOULD BE BETTER IF HE DIED AND THINKING i NEEDED TO REPENT FOR SUCH THOUGHTS. iT WAS OVER AN HOUR AFTER THAT THAT THE NEWS CAME IN THAT HE HAD DIED. i'D REALLY THOUGHT WE MIGHT HAVE ANOTHER MIRALCCLE LIKE THE ONE THAT SAVED tRUMP. eVEN THOUGH THE REPORTS WERE THAT BLOOD HAD IMMEDIATELY GUSHED FROM THESIDE OF cHARLIE'S NECK SHEN HE WAS HIT, WHIH DOES NOT SOUND LIKE SOMETHING ONE SURVIVES EASILY IF AT ALL i'D STILL HOPED, EVEN AGAINST ALL THOUSE OTHER THOUGHTS. tHEN HE DIED AND i SANK INTO A TEARFUL STATE FOR ANOTHER HOUR OR SO, AND ANGRY, ANGRY AT THE lEFT WHO ARE ALWAYS CALLING cHARLIE AND tRUP AND ALL US CONSERVATIVES FOUL NAMES, FASCIST, HATERS, ALL LIES TO PROVOKE PEOPLE INTO HATING US AND MAYBE WANTING TO KILL US. tHAT'S WHAT KILLED cHARLIE, i KNEW IT THEN AND i KNOW IT NOW, ALTHOUGHT ALL THESE SUPPOSED REASONABLE VOICES CAME ON SAYING hEY WE DON'T KOW WHAT MOTIVATED THIS SHOOTING, HOLD OFF UNTIL WE KNOW. yEAH YEAH YEAH, SURE THERE COULD BE SOMETHIG TOTALLY WEIRD ABOUT THE PERSON'S MOTIVSTION BUT NO, NOT REALLY. pWEOPEL WHO HAVE BEEN CONDITIONED BY THE lEFT TO HATE cHRALIER AND gRUMP AND ALL OF US ON THE rIGHT ARE THE REASON cHRARLIE WAS SHOT, i KNEW IT THEN ALTHOUGH i REFRAINED FROM WRITING A BLOG POST UNTIL i KNOIEW MORE OFR SURE. aND NOW THAT i DO i JUST KNOW THE SAME THING ONLY i KNOW IT FOR SURE.
bUT THERE WAS THIS ODD THING THAT gOD HAD LED ME TO HEAR THE FIRST ANNOUNCEMENT OF HIS BEING SHOT AT EXACTLY THE RIGHT MOMENT. nOW i'M THINKING HAT WAS THE hoLY sPIRIT TELING ME THAT cHARLIE WAS GOING TO DIE AND IT WOULD BE A GOOD THING, THE THOUGHT i KEPT FEELING i NEEDED TO APOLOGIZE FOR. i DON'T THINK THAT WAS MY OWN THOUGHT NOW, i THINK IT WAS gOD SAYING cHARLIE IS GOING TO DIE AND i WAS TOO OBTUSE TO RECOGNIZE hIS VOICE.
nOW i'M EVEN THINKIUBG HOW THAT PERFET SHOT TO THE JUGULAR WAS A SORT OF MIRACLE LIKE THE MIRACLE THAT SAVED tRUMP, ONLY IN THIS CASE IT WAS A CLEAN DEADLY SHOT cHARLIE COULD NOT POSSIBLY HAVE SURVIVED. gOD ENGINEERED THIS ONE TOO THOUGHT. hE COULD HAVE MADE IT MISS AS HE DID THE SHOT AT tRUMP, OR hE CULD HAVE MADE IT ISS IN SUCH A WAY THAT HIS LIFE WOULD HAVE LINGERED QUITE A BIGT LONGER BEFORE HE DIED, BUT NOW IT WAS A CLEAN DEADLY SHOT, ONE SHOT, TO THE JUGULAR. eVEN AT CLOSE RANGE THAT IS A PRETTY MIRACLULOUS SHOT.
tHEN OVER THE LAST COUOPLE OF DAYS i'VE HEARD VOICES ON THE RADIO OF PEOPLE WHO KNEW chARLIE, SO MANY OF THEM, ALMOST PICTURING AN USUNUSUAL GREAT MAN, A GREAT SAINT, A GIANT AMONG MEN. i THOUGHT BUT WOW IS THIS BECAUSE OF THEIR GRIEF THAT YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO SAY SOMETHING SO OVER THE TOP LAUDATORY OF THE PERSON? sURELY HE WAS A VERY GOOD GUY WHO WORKED HARD AND HAD A BIG TALEN FOR HIS CALLING TO THE YOUNGER ENERATION, i DON'G DOUBT THAT, BUT THEY WERE MAKING HIM INTO SOMETHING BIGGER THAN THAT. aND WHEN i HEARD HIS WIFE'S SPEECH YESTERDAY AND THEN THE PROGRAM HE USUALLY HOSTED IN WHICH FOUR OF HIS STAFF REMEMBERED HIM, THE IMPRESSION CONTINUED THAT THEY WERE SAYING HE WAS BIGGER THAN YOUR ORDINARY HARD WORKING cHRISTIAN PATRIOT. i THINK NOW THEY MEAN IT, THEY SEE HIM THAT WAY, ALTHOUGH HE WAS ONLY THIRTY ONE. hE WAS SOME KIND OF DYNAMO AND RULY DIRVEN BY HIS FAITH IN THE lORD jESUS TO ACCOMPLISH AN AENORMOUSJ UNDERTAKING TOWARD BRINGING THE YOUNGER GENERATION TO A TRUE UNDERSTANDING OF THE aMERICAN VISION AND TO cHRIST AS WELL. tURNING poiNT IS WHAT HE NAMED HIS ORGANIZATION, AND IT SOUNDS LIKE IT'S BEEN STAFFED WELL BY HUNDREDS OR EVEN THOUGHSANDS OF OTHER HARD WORKERS FOR THE CAUSE AND IT WILL GO ON, AND HIS WIFE SOUNDED STRONG AND DETERMIEND TO MAKE IT GO ON. i'M VERUY IMPRESSED AND NOW i'M THINKING THIS IS gOD'S PLAN, gOD IS GOING TO ELEVATE tURNING pOINT AND ACCOMPLISH SOMETHING GRULY MIRACLULOUS BY THE DEATH OF cHARLIE kIRK.
i HAVE MANY HOPEFUL THOUHTS ABOUT WHAT COULD BE ACCOMPLISHED , MAY MANY MANY. aND i COULD WRITE A LOT MORE BUT NOWT NOW, MAYBE LATER.
qWLL AT LEAST A LITTLE MORE NOW.
i HEARD AN NTERVIEW WITH THE UOING MAN AT THE UNCERSITY IN uTUAL WHO WAS ONE OF THE FIRST TO CHALLENGE cHARLIE AT THE MIRACLE GOOD GRIEF i WROTE MIRACLE AND MEANT TO WRITE MICROPHONE. aNYWAY HE WAS TRYING TO CONVINCE cHRARLIE THAT HE WAS WRONG ABOUT THE VIOLENCE ON THE lEFT, ESCPECIALLY AMONG THE TRANSGENDERS i THINK, WHEN THE SHOT RANG OUT AND HE WITNESSED cHARLIE BEING HIT. aCCORDING TO THE DESCRITPIONS i HEARD THE YOUNG MAN PUT HIS NANDS OVER HIS FACW AND VERWAS VERY SHAKEN UP. fUNNY THAT MANY HAD SPECULATED THAT MAYBE HIS QUESTION WAS SOME KIND OF SIGN OT THE SHOOTER, MAKING HIM INTO A CONSPIRATOR TO KILL cHARLIE BUT AS HE HIMSLEF DESCRIBED HIS EXPERIENCE IT BECAME VERY CLEAR THAT HE WAS IN NOW WAY INOVLVED. hE WAS TRULY SHAKEN AT THE DEATH OF cHARLIE AND SPOKE AS IF TO THE SHOOTER, HAVE E LOST TRACK OF THE FACT THAT THIS IS A HUNAN BEING. hE DIDN'T AGREE WITH cHARLIE ABOUT A LOT OF THINGS BUT HE WAS A HUNAN BEING, A HUSBAND AND A FATHER, AND SO SAID THE YOUNG MAN WAS HE WHO HAD ASKED THE QUESTION. wqE DON'T KILL THOSE WE DISAGREE WITH. hE WAS CLEARLY TRULY UPSET AND i'M VERY GLAD TO HEAR A PERSON ON THE lET SAY SOMETHING SO CLEARLY HEARTFELT AGAINST THE OTHERS ON HIS SIDE WHO ARE ALL GLEEFULLY BLAMING cHARLIE FOR HIS OWN DEATH, SAYING HOW HE WAS A DIVISIVE VOICE AND A PROVOCAGEUR WHEN ALL HE WEVER DID WAS QUIETLY AND KINDLE STATE HIS OWN CONSERVATIVE OPINION ON MANY SUBJECTS. tHEWY ARE THE HATERS, NOT cHARLIE. tHEY ARE THE FASCISTS, NOT cHARLIE bUT THIS YOUNG MAN, APPARENTLY ALSO A HUSBAND AND FATHER, ALTHOUGH HE IS ALSO ON THE lEFT, ALSO A dEMOCRATE, aLSO IN OPPOSITION TO cHARLIE ANDTHE REST OF US ON THE rIGHT. HE DOESN'T SHARE THOSE ALL TOO COMON HATEFUL CALLS TO KILL PEOPLE THEY DON'T AGREE WITH, FIRST DEHUAMNIZING THEM AS EVIL FASCISTS AND HATERS. sOMEHOME ON ONE OF THE SHOWS LIKENED THIS ATTITTUDE TO THE VOICE ON THE RADIO IN sWANDA THAT CALLED THE tUTSIS "COCKRAOSCHES" AND DEHUMANIZED THEM IN THE SAME WAY, SETTING THEM UP FOR THE GREAT SLAUGHTER OF THEM THAT SOON FOLLOWED. tHAT'S THE PREDICTABLE CONSEQUENCE OF DEMOMIZING HYOUR OPPOSITION AND THAT IS WHAT GOT cHARLIE KILLED. aND WHY THEY KEEP TRYING TO KILL tRUMP. tRUMP IS NOTHING BUT A STRONG PATRIOT AND HARDPOWRKING pRESIDENT WHO WANTS TO RESTORE THE TRUE VALUES OF aMERICA BUT THEWY TRY TO TURN HIM INTO SOME KIND OF MONSTER AND APPARENTLY A SCARY LOT OF THEM BELIEVE THE PROPAGANDA.
i WAS RECENTLY PRAYING ABOUT ALL THIS. hOW TDO WE FIGHT THE LIES? sOME LISTEN FROM TIME TO TIME AND ACTAULLY CHANGE THEIR MINDS. tHAT'S WONDERFUL , BUT IT'S VERY FEW AND THERE ARE EVEN SOME WHO APAPRENTLY CAN SEE THEY'VE BEEN LIED TO AND STILL DON'T CHANGE THEIR VIEWS THAT WERE BASED ON THOSE LIES. i DON'T GET IT BUT i'VE SEEN IT HAPPEN. sO THE TAKS OF CHAING MINDS SEEMS INSURMOUNTABLE. i WAS PRAYING ABOUT THAT. hOW, lORD, DON'T yOU HAVE TO ACT? wE CAN'T DO ANYTGNG. tHEY HAVE US SILENCED. tHE lEFT HEARDS ONLY THE PROPGANDA MACHINE AND THEY DON'T BOTHER TO GO LOOKIN FOR ANY OTHER POINT OF VIEW. iT'S ALL OUT HERE BUT THEY WILL; NEVER FIND IT BECAUSE THEY HAE NO REASON TO LOOK FOR IT. lORD, yOU MUST ACT.
i WAS PRAYING THAT NOWT LONG BEFORE i GOT THE NEWS ABOUT cHARLIE kIRDK. nOW i'M THINKING HOPEFULLY THAT MAYBE i'M SWEEING THE BEGINNING OF THE ANSWER TO THAT PRAYER. cHARLIE HAD THE EAR OF MANY IN THE YUYOUNGER GENERATION. tHAT WAS HIS MISSIO. i'M HOPING IT WILL ONLY GROW FAST AND FURIOUS FROM NOW ON.
aND i WAS VERY IMPRESSED WITH cHRARLIE'S WIFE eRICA AS SHE SPOKE ABOUT HIM, TEARFUL BUT ABLE TO CONTROL HERSELF. a TRUE cHRISTIAN SPIRIT COMES FRO HER AND FROM cHARLIE. tHAT'S WHAT WE NEED. tHE KNOWLEDGE THAT THE lORD IS IN CHARGE OF ALL OF IT EVEN WHEN WE DON'T KNOW WHAT OR WHY hE IS DOING ANY OF IT UNTIL AFTER WE START TO SEE THE RESULTS, SOMETIMES LONG INTO THE FUTURE. bUGT i THINK WE CAN SEE HIM WORKING ALREADY. i CAN. aND eRICA SOUNDED so SRONG IN HER DETERMINATION TO KEEP tRUNING poINT A DRIVING FORCE IN aMERICA. kNOWING THAT THE lORD IS IN CHARGE, i WAS SAYING, THAT'S THE cHRISTIAN MINDSTET. eVEN WHEN hE TAKES OUR BELOVED HUSBAND WITH A PROMISING , VERY POROMISING CALLING IN THE WORLD, YOU KNOW hE KNOWS WHAT hE IS DOIG EVEN IF YOU DON'T. cHARLIE HAD TO DIE. uNLESS A GRAIN OF WHEAT FALL TO THE GROUND A ND DIE IT BEARS NO FRUIT, OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT, jESUS SAID. iT WAS FALL TOT HE GROUND AND DIEDE AND THEN IT WILL BECOME A GREAT AND FLOURISHING PLANT. jUST THE FACT THAT SO MANY OF US WERE SO FIRED UP AT HIS DEATH IS A START. i HAVE NO PARTICULAR REASON TO BE FIRED UP AT THE DEATH OF cHARLIE kIRK, AS i KEEP SAYING. sAD, SURE, O H THEY GOT ANOTHER ONE OF US BUT WE'LL JUST KEEP GOING ETEC ETC ETC. nOW THERE'S SOMETHIG MUCH BIGGER AND CSTRANGER TABOUT THIS ONE. lETT IT BEAR FRUIT, lORD.
eRICA ALSO COMES ACROSS AS A TRUE cHRISTIAN IN HER SOLID BELIEF THAT SHE WILL SEE cHARLIE AGAIN, THAT HE IS OF COURSE ALIV AND WITH THE loRD. sOMETIMES PEOPLE SAY SUCH THINGS BUT IT DOESN'T CARRY MUCH CONVICTION. wITH eRICA YOU KOW SHE BELIEVES IT. sHE KNOWS gOD HAS A PLAN, SHE KNOWS gOD KNOWS WHAT hE IS DOING, SHE KNOWS HER JOB IS JUT TO KEEP THE PLAN ALIVE AND WORK HARDER THAN EVER, SHE KNOWS THAT aLL THINGS WORK TO THE GOOD FOR WTHOSE WHO LOVE OD AND ARE THE CALLED ACCORDING TO hIS PURPOSES. sHE QUEOTED THAT AND i THINK i HEARD cHARLIE QUOTE IT RECENTLY SOMEWHERE TOO. rOMAND EIGHT? TWENTY EIGHT.
oH oLORD oH lORD, IS THIS THE REVIVAL SO MANY OF US HAVE PRAYDED FOR OVER THE YEARS? fINALLY? oH ONE MORE THOUGHT. fUNNY THOUGHT. aS cHARLIE'S tURNING poINT STAFF WERE TALKING ABOUT HIM ON THE RADIO SHOW LAST NIGHT ONE OF THEM MENTIONED THAT HE HAD SOME RATHER PECULIAR EATING HABITS, APPARENTLY DUE TO HIS CONCERN TO STAY HEALTHY. sUCH AS EATING NOTHING UBUT ONE FOOD FOR A WHOLE MEAL, SUCH AS ALL MEAT FOR ONE MEAL FOR INSTANCE.
oNE OF HIS MEALS MIGHT BE A GIANT BOWL OF NOTHING BUT BROCCOLI. aND THAT MADE ME LAUGH, BECUASE i'V HAD THAT SAME MEAL MIYSELF TWICE ISN THE LAST WEEK. i COOK THE BROCCOLI FOR ABOUT TEN MINUTES IN CHICKEN BROTH AND EAT THE WHOLE THING, ABOUT A , NO, ABOUT TWO HEADS OF BROCCOLI CHAPOOED UP ACCORDING TO THE INSTRUCTION FO cHRIS wARTK IN HIS BOOK cHRISTS cHRIS bEAT cANCER WHICH i'VE BEEN LISTENING TO LATELY. hE GIVES GENERAL ADVICE FOR A DRASTIC HEALTH PROMOTING DIET IN HIS CHAPTERS EIGHT AND NINE AND i'VEW BEEN LISTENIG OVER AND OVER TO THEM AND TRYING TO ICOROPORATE THE ADVICE INTO MY OWN SITUATION AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. hE WOULD EAT THE BROCCOLI RAW AS PART OF HIS GIANT DAILY RAW SALAD, BUT i DON'T LIKE IT RAW ALTHOUGH i LIKE ALL THE OTHER VEGETABLES RAW, SO i EAT THEM IN A SALD OR SOMETIMTES JUIST MUNCH THEM WHOLE IF i'M TOO TIRED TO MAKE A SALAD, BUT i COOK THE BROCCOLI AND EAT IT SEAPRATELY. cHRIS wARD WOULDN'T ADD CHICKEN BROTH BECAUSE HE GENERAL AVOICES MEAT PERODUCTS, NOT EXCLUSIVELY BUT MOTCSTLY AND CHICKEN BROTH GRANULES ARE OF COURSE A PROCESSED FOOD WHICH IS TO BE SHUNNED BY ANYONE TRYING TO GET HEALTHY. aNYUWAY IT HELPS WE LIKE THE BROCCOLI BETTER. sO i'LL EAT THIS GIANT BOWL OF CHICKEN BROTH FLAVORED BROCCOLI. aND THEN i FOUND OUT THAT cHARLIE kIRK MIGHT EAT SOMETHING SIMILAR ONCE INA A WHILE.
jUST ANOTHER LITTLE WAY THE lORD SEEMS TO BE LINKING ME UP WITH cHARLIE, SAYING HPERHAPS i'M TO WORK TO SUPPORT HIS MISSION SOMEHOW OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT, WHICH i'D BE QUITE HAPPY TO DO IF THERE IS ANY WAY i CAN DO IT. wELL, i CAN WRITE ABOUT IT AS i'M DOING HERE, AND THAT MAY BE THE BEST i CAN DO BUT IT'S SOMETHING. i SUPPOSE THE lORD IS LINKING UP A LOT OF chRISTIANS TO cHARLIE'S WORK THESE DAYS. i'M STARTING TO THINK tURNING pOINT IS hiS BIG PROJECT RIGHT NOW AND WE'RE ALL BEING DDRAWN INTO IT.
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