More on the memorial service and hopes for revival

 Many, I haven't heard how many but many, people inspired by Charlie Kirk and moved by his murder, went to church the weeked afer.  It does seem like a revival and I hope it is but it's hard to tell at this point.  They would have been moved by an appreciation of Charlie's life and talks and sadness and anger at hjis death.  That's impressive because there were so many who were touched in that way, nearly a hundred thousand showing up for the memorial and some say a hundred million who tuned in to it in one way or another.  That's a lot of people affected by this one young man.  He had quite a reach.  In death it turns out he was a lot bigger a person than a lot of us had any idea.  A good man, a true Christian and a dedicated worker for the good of America.  

But as I said in my first post on the memorial, that isn't enough for a true revival.  Emotionas and intellectual understanding and appreciation aren't Christian conversion.  

Many may continue anyway.  I hope so.   Eventually they may become converted and be true Christians.  But moved only by iind or emotion they aren't yet that.   Unfortuately I think many who spoke about their friendship with Charlie and they own appreciation of CHristian values as if they themselves were also Christians just aren;t.  So often people think Christian conversion is a merely mental thing, and if you stick with it that is evidence enough that it is real.  But often it's just like belonging to a clugb where you feel at home and no real conversion has taken place.

Revival would make true converts.  Christian conversion is a supernatural thing, it is the new birth by which we become indwelt by the Holy Spirit.  This comes about when we believe what wwe are taught to believe about Jewsus' death for us on the cross, to pay for our sincs so that we don't have to go to Hell for them.  And believe that He rose from the dead.  These must be firmly embraced beliefs.  And while there isn't always a clear sign that someone has been born again a change in the life is the usual way it is recognized.  I instantly lost my foul mouth for instance.  Oh it's coe back now and then much later on under the influence of bad copany, but I've lost it again and it never took hold as it once had hold of me.  And I was enraptured with the things of God, the Bible, Christian books and so on.  Most of my worldly interests just dropped away.   And most of those are still gone and never came back, though I've gone too far into worldly things of a different sort from time to time and had to give those ustp too.  I'm actually regretting all the years I spent pursuing the creation evolution debate.    I think by getting so involved in that I lost a lot of early connectio with God and all those lovely spiritual experiences I had in the early days may never retrun.  It made me terribly sad just last night as I was listening again to Tozer's the Pursuit of God to realize how long it has been since I felt His presence the way I used to.

Speaking of presence,  His presence that is, some said they felt it at the memorial.  Humming like a tuning fok fork someone said.  Harir stood on eand another said.  Could feel the prayers being said, actually feel them.    

It was that sort of remark that reminded me of Watchman Nee's book The Latent Power of the Soul, because I don't think those things are how the HOly SPirit is felt.  I may be srong but I think usually those things are how what Nee calls soul power is felt, how a gigantic crowed of people all vfocusing their attention in one way projejhcts a pwoer not of the Spirit ofbut of the human soul or personality that can actually be fewlt and actually have effects on people at the receievinbg receiving end of it.    Concentrated emotion, repeated musical phrases and so on, are not the Spirit but of the soul and can project a lot of power that can be felt.  

I can't be absolutely sure there wasn't some of the HOly Spirit there in power , all I can say is it doesn't seem likely to me.  The conditions weren't present for Him to come.  The conditions that were present were for the manifestation of a lot of emotion and that is a completely different thing.

But Christian conversion is supernatural, it is spiritual.  Emotion may cewrtainly be a big part of it but the change itself is spiritualand it wouldn't be expressed by the sort of emotion that was felt for Charlie Kirk, perfectly appropriate in that memorital service, what everyone was there for, God would be the subject of it all and the diifference should have been obvious.

In saying these things I'm not criticizing the memorial serive.  I think it was excellent as a memorial service.  I'm suust saying that if we cwant revival to come out of all this something more needs to happen and it hasn't happened yet.

I would love to see that more come about but I don't see where it is ging to come from yet.  

Later:  When I sais d I thought the memorial service was xcellent as a tribute to Charlie Kirk I left outr y one main complaint, which is that repetitive music phrases, singing chorsuses over and over again, is a tactic used to drum up emotion, which some apparently think is the Holy Spirit or will bring the Holy Spirit and I want to be emphatically clear that that is not the case.  You do not brig the Holy Spiorit that way.  You may bring some kind of effect you take for the Holy spirit but it is either the effect of human personalities all focused on one thing which can actually project a power of its own, or in some cases the evil spirits can mannifest from such huponotizing music.   Humns are one thing, soothing mesmerizing music is quie something else, evn if the words seem to uplift God or Christ.   There was way too much of that at the memorial.   If we cant revival we aren't going to get it that way and it would be a big mistake to let ourselves be deceived into takeing such a counterfeit for the real thing.

Charlie Kirk Memorial: Revival, Promise and Pitfalls

qell, again, same as when I was praying for Charlie right after hearing he'd been shot, I found myslef  listening to the Memorial serice on Sunday and having the "wrong" reaction which distressed me greatly.  Everythibg else seemed to be deeply moved by the worship before the program began, and by the whole event for that matter.  Many said they felt the Holy Spirit there and just wahat a wonderful memorial it was for Charlie and what a wonderful expressio of Christianity for the world to see.   

I agree it was avery impressive event and a great memorial service overall for Charlie, very well put together, well thought out, and the speeches were all inspiring in their own way.  The gospel was preached in almost every speech and that was wonderfl.  The worship usic was high calibre, very progressional, emotionally moving, the voices of the singers beautiful and powerful.  I understood only a few days later that these were the top tirer of Christian performaers in the music culture, hugely talented.  I only knew one name among them.  I'm juist not into pop style worship music, though I admit that some of the songs are very nice.  

But I kept feeling I should be more moved and involved in all this, shoultn' I?  Why isn't this affecting me the way it is affecting everyone else>  I do appreciate the speeches, the preaching of tthe gospel by such a disparate group of people, all that , but it's just not moving me at all.  And I assume that's my afault.  Lord, what's wrong with me.  All these wonderful people are finding YOu there in that huge stadium, what's  wrong with me?  If I wre  actually there would I have a differeing  reaction?  

It was wonderfully organized.  The Turing Point team pulled off a program that seemed to flow just about seamlessly, having had only a short while to accomplish it.  Quite a feat I think.  They are a well organized group of people and hard workers and I'm oimpressed.  And I'm certainly not doubting the importance of the gospel's being so front and cetnter from beginning to eld.  But shouldn't I be happier about all that?  hat is the matter with me?

I'd listening to the Charlie Kirk show every evening since his murder allnd that was very inpspiring.  They had some great conversations with people who knew Charlie well, good stuff.  They are a deply committed Christian group of people, that comes across clearly.  I should have been happy with the memorial service.  I'd been saying how I think Charlie's death could be the impetus for a great revival, and for the most part I haven't lost that idea.  I still think it will be a vrevival to some extent but I'm not sure to what extent.  It seemed to many that the memorial was jut the beginning of something big as far as spreading the gospel through the culture.  I hope it is.  But I wasn't feeling it as I thought I should during the memorial.

Well, nobody wants to be a party pooper.  It took me a few days to consolidate the impressions that put a damper fo r me on the revival claims, that I kept dismissing at the time and for a couple days safterward.  It took a while to begin to take them seriously and think about what they mean.

Not that I didn't think these things at the time, I just kept teling metyslef no, I must be missing somethig.  But for instance, I thought, Oh no, too much trying to drum up ane n emotional reaction in the audience by the worship music, too much repeating of short lines, too much engagihjng the drowed in the repetitive strinas.  Emotion is not the Holy Spirit.  ANd emotion hcan be very powerful in its own right, can move  croweds of people.  But we want the Holy Spirit, we on't want emotion.  Unfortunately Christians are just not able to appreciate the difference.  It is very easy to confuse emotions that center around God and beautiful things of the ChristiaN FAITH FOR THE WORK OF THE sPIRIT.  

i KEPT FEELING, THE sPIRIT IS OT HERE NO MATTER WHAT THEY ALL ARE SAYING, hE JUST IS NOT.  nOT THE WAY hE COMES IN REVIVAL ANYWAY.  i'M SURE hE'S HERE BECAUSE hE'S ALWAYS WITH hIS PEOPLE, BUT h'ES NOT HERE THE WAY hE COMES IN REVIVAL.tHAT'S THE THOUGHT i KEPT THROWING OUT, TELLING MYSELF THERE'S SOEMEHITNG WRONG WITH ME FOR THINKING THIS WAY.  bUT AFTER A FEW DAYS OF WORKING THGROUGH MY THOUGHTS i'M MORE CONVINCED THAT i WAS RIGHT.  i'M VERY CONVINCED THAT THOSE FEELINGS AND THOUGHTS WERE RIGHT, THAT LACK OF FEELING.i DIDN'T WANT TO THINK IT, i WANTED IT TO BE A POWERFUL REVIVAL EVENT.  iT WAS  CERTAINLY A VENUE FOR THE GOSPEL TO BE PREACHED, BUT IF THE GOSPEL WASN'T CARRIED BY THE hOLY sPIRIT, HOW LONG WILL ITS EFFECTS LAST?

lAST NIGHT i FINALLY GOT AROUBND TO LISTENING AGAIN TO THE BOOK BY wATCHMAN nEE, THE lATENT pOWER OF THE sOUL, IN WHICH HE VERY CAREFULLY  DISCRIMINATES BETWEEN SOUL AND SPIRIT TO MAKE THE MAIN POINT THAT SOUL CAN BE MMADE TO COUNTERFEIT THE WORKING OF THE hOLY spiRIT TO THE DETRIMENT OF THE cHURCH AND THE cHRISTIAN'S SPIRITUAL LIFE.  

There is more I want to write bbut I'm going to stop here and come back to it later.

    Oh no, how long as the caps lock kep been on?  Oh no.  self at the 

Later:

Nees little book is a little strange compared to his wother writings and I'm not sure he's right about his picture of the soul power possessed by Adam and Eve before the Fall.  It just sounds odd to me.  I do thionk he's right that they must have had great powers that were lost, cetrtainly at least strengths that have been lost bit by bit over the millennia at least, geneitc protections for instance.  And I don't necessarily doubt Nee's view of their having powers that seem supernatural by our standards, I just don't see clear evidence of it in the scripture.  He's a lot more spiritually advanced than most Christians, however, do I'm not going to argue with him behoyound saying this much.  

Also, since he's writing in the early part of the twentieth century hgis references to the sciences of parapsychologigy and mesmerism sound very sdated.  ARE dated.  We hear little or nothing of these things today and the terminology is just not  something we would use today.  In the fifties when I was in my teens I got interested in the work of J B Rhine on telepathy and clairvoyance and pscyhokenesis and that sort of things but Nee had written this book some years before Rhine, so that although Rhine is certainly dated today, Nee's references are even more dated.   

Nevertheless I think his general point is likely true, that is, that we do have powers that are not availbe to us in our fallen condition, perhaps hidden in our flesh as he describes it, and only occasionally accessibly to individuals here and there over the millennia since the Fall.  I think the general idea must be right and it accounts for things that are otherwise very hard to explain.  Such as the strange powers described by some Hindu adepts, such as Paramahansa Yogananada.  I read his book when I was on my way to becoming a Christian.  I took a lot of strang sdetraous like that.  Yogananda desdcbribes being able to project your consciosness to great distances and see and hear things there, even manifest  in a body gthat looks like us in order to talk to people who knows us at such distances.   And of course telepathy and seeing things without being transported, and being able to move objects with the mind and those Hindou feat of lying on a bed of nails or walking on hot coals and so on.  When I read that book I had no idea what to think aof aoll that.  It doesn't sound very holy, very worshipful, just strange.   Yogananda's organization which he founded in California is called the Self Realization Fellowship and that's very approrpaite in the litght of Nee's presentation.  It is the Self, or Soul, that is produscing all these strange phenomena and can even produce miraculous seeming things that deceive people into accpeting them as the Holy Spirit.  It is ot the Spirit.

Fallen manm sodoes not have he Spirit.  I'beve heard people in the last few weeks who are certainly reliegious people in a way, often Catholics, who clearly have no idea what the Holy Spirit is because they are not born again, so they impute religious feelings of many sorts to the Spirit.  But you do not have the Holy Spirit unless you are born again, and you aren't born again if you sear like a sailor as one person does, and probably ot if you use the rosary which is a pagan instrument having nothing whatever to do with Christianity, ask Mary to pray for us which they all do in one of their repetitituve rosary recitations.  Nohje of that is compatible with being born agaIN.  i SUPPOSE IT'S POSSIBLE TO GET BORN AGAIN AND STILL HOLD ONTO SOME OF THAT BUT i CAN ONLY SAY POSSIBLE BECAUSE IT SEEMS HIGHLY UNLIKLELY TO ME AND i REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW FAR OFF TRACK YOU CAN GO AND STILL BE BORN AGAIN.

jJust noticed I managed to kick on the caps logk again.  I wish the light were brighter so I'd know when it happenes.

My guess is that the church needs a lot of cleaning up and throwing out of such pagan thigs among other problems before we can have a real Holy Spirit revival.  How I yearn for such a revival, but the Church is in bad cshape.  I'm certainly glad that many seem to be coming to the Lord in the last days since Charlie was murderered, and I'm sure some of that will hold, but I'm worried now that becaue the Church is not wary of  the many subtle counterfiets the devil can pull off, thogugh our soul power and other means, that it could unfortunatley fizzle out way too soon.

Need  Nee advises praying that the Lord will keep us alert to such things, protect us against them, that we need to be very serious about the  armor of God, and the main thing is dying to self.  If we are always carefully putting down the self so that the spirit can take charge we will be better prepared for a real Holy Spirit revival.  TWhich would take the Church to a new level of spiritual power.     And oterhwise the devil will have succeeded in keeping us in his control.

All the religious of the world try to release the soul powers according to Nee, and that certainly makes a lot of sense of what they do with their meditations and ascetic practices, which aim to keep the flesh in subjection so that sould can come forth.    There is no HOly Spirit in thoe relgions and the devil can't work with the Holy Pirit anyway, only the human sould.  That makes sense.

But if we get carried away by emotion, which in itself is no fault of course, but I mean if we get carried away and think it is the Holy Spirit instead, we cannot have true revival, which in most cases begins with a powerful convicion of sin that haaas people crying out for God's forgiveness, or at least that's one way it comes about.  The HOly sSpirit convicts of sin first of all and although we supposedly repetn or say we repetn anyway, it's ooften a very superficial thing.  If it's real then we'lll be born again if we believe the right things, but it still usually needs to be a lot sdeeper than the first conversion repentance.  When the Holy Spirit comes in power He bowls us over, He possesses us, He doesn't just make us emotional, in fact we may not get  emotional at all.  Or it will be a for a differnet reason.

I want Charlie's death to bring us a real revival, but there'as a lot we need to learn for that to happen I think.

Charlie Kirk / THE BLOOD OF THE MARTYRS IS THE SEED OF THE CHURCH

 It was one of the early Church Fathers who lsaid that, I always thought Athanasius but someone recently attributed it to Tertullian so now I'm not sure.  Anywauy I'm more and more convinced that the death of Charlie Kirk is God's plan for something very big both for His Church and for the country, and prhaps the world.

Unless a seed fall to the ground and die, it abideth alone, but if it die it will bear much fruit.  

I think I did a better job o quoting that this time than I did a few posts below.  Yes, I was thinking then that this was probably God's plan, that He took Charlie;s life so that soeme great , very great, fruition of Christianity in this country coul;d come about.

And yes, I am more and more sure of that as time goes on.  I've now heard two others mention that this could be revival, oh that wonderful vreivvial that has eleuded us for decades though so many of us have prayed our hearts out for it.   Yes yes yes, oh may it have come.

That it would take a great sacrifice to bring it about would not have occurred to me, and I think it has taken all of us by surprise.  Those who do think  this is God's plan.  

As I say in my previous post about Charlie Kirk I didn't have much of an idea about him except that he was a young conservative who debated college kids and spoke openly of his cChristian faith, a very nice combination to discover in a young guy so I has happy to know we had him working for our causes.  But what I had NO idea about has only been developing since his death, that he was a much bigger personality than I had any idea.  Recognized as a great man even when he was very young, for instance as destined to be President, reocgnized by many as having that kind of greatness hin him.  I had no idea.  And he was not just the acquaintance of but the close friend of many movers and shakers from the President and Vice President to a whole slew of talk show hosts and politicians and pastors, as well as popular with the thousands of young people he talked to on the college campuses, havingconverted quite a few of them to his political views.  And, it turns out his Christianity as well.  I keep hearing that the churches have been packed since his death with young people, annany of whom had never been to church before.  Some spoke to news people of wanting to change their lives for the better in the model of Charlie, to be better men, hysbands and fathers.   

Some described the scene at the Phoenix Arizona headquarters of Charlie's organization, Turning POInt, as reminiscent of the outpouring of love for Princess diana of Britain when she died, a huge array of teeddy bears and balloons and flowers and messages.   I had NO idea Charlie was that big in our world.

ASome of it hs grown up dsince his death as many have been discovering him who never heard of him before, but still those who did know of him and follow him are a much larger crowd  than I had any idea.  This event to honor him that is planned for Sunday is to be held in a stadium that holds  73 thousand people.  

This seed that has fallen to the ground is one huge expensive seed, a truly great human being who had accomplished a prodigious lot in his short life.  A big man in the ture meaning of the word.  And as a big man whe will be a big seed for a giganitic outpouring, that fruitful result of the death of the seed and the blood of the martyrs.  On a great scale.  Because he was big, so much bigger than I had any idea.

A few days ago I got into looking up the meaning of names, since I like all kinds of symbolism, and I found out that the name Charles means Man, or Manly.  I already knew that the name Kirk is sScottish for Church.  Many and Church.  Wowo, how appropriate for Charlie Kirk.  And then I looked up Eric, because his wife ahds the feminine fversion of that name, Erica, and it means Honoirable Ruler.   I'd already had the idea that she was going to become a big part of the organization now, based on her inspiring speech of Friday night, and then this morning she was voted by the Turning POint staff to be their new CEWO.   They all said she would carry the persona of Charlie as well as his mission more recognizably to the public than any of the other memebers of his staff, and besides, he'd told them that it was his wish that shee succeed him if something like this ever happened.

Wonderful things going on.  We've been sliding father and father into the darkness for soi many years it's been hard to beliee that we could ever get out of it.  But God knows how to do the impossible.  We would never have thought of any of this, but God, God knows hw to do things we can't even deream of.  Things we couldn't descire either?  The death of a great man like Charlie?  We couldn't dream that.  We wouldn't.  Bug God knows what He is doing.   All things work together for good to those who love God and are called according to His purposes.

Praise You Lord, praise You and thank You.  I know it is no time for us to get complacent.  It's time to work harder than ever, pray harder than ever, seek Your will in everythig we do.  Help us to stauy on Track, Lord.00000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000Especially watch over Erica and Turning POInt.

The sad story of Tyler Roninson

 And we don't even know that story yet.   I just know it's sad.  What I have heard is that he comes from a nicew quiety patriotic Mormon family in Utah, Rebublicans who no doubt voted for Trump and if they were familiar with Charlie Kirk no doubt supported him.  Tyler was a straight A student, a kid to make his parents proud, with two brothers who were apparently folliwng in his worthy footsteps.

jUntil sometimehthin radicalized him.  As his family tells us, over the last few years Tyler became radicalized, obviously on the Left, as his messages call Chrlie Kirk a fascist and a hater, typical leftist smeark of anything conservative.    Seomething radicalized him onto the Lerft.  We need to know what that was.   It's going to be a very sad story.

Knowing the little I do about his background I'm now feeling very sorry for him and of course for his familay.  I'm ghoing to be praying for him.  I want him to repent and see that he was wrong, and I want him to be saved.     The death penalty is the only right puishement for ssomeone who committed murder, God Himself says that in Genesis Nine right after the Flood, Whoever takes a human life, by man shall his life be taken.   And should be taken, it's obvious justice.

But when it seems the murderrer ight have been manipulated or seduced int to his evil act out of a rightoeoue family it takes on a differenrt coloration and now I'm hoping here will be time for him to repent and udnerstand the reality and the truth of what he did.    It sounds like before he was radicalized he might have been a good addition to the Turning POint mission, is it too mu

h to pray that he ight still be made somehow to suerve such a role?  Tht's ewhat I'm praying nyay.

Eventually the only right thing is execution, but maybe that could be put off.  IF he repents.  I'm praying for that.

Antichrist Five: Pope Leo Addresses Nations As If H'es King of the WQOrld

 My AleWhich the popes used to be, back in the days of the "Holy Roman Empire" which Voltaire said was neither holy , nor Roman, nor an empirse, which still amuses me.  

But anyway..  On the occasion of a big party thrown for him at the Vatican apparently for his seventieth birthday , on Sunday the fourteenth, he accused natyions who object to the growing illegal immigration problem of inhumaity in trying to keep out the great hordes of "migrants" who have been flooding in.  Of course many of them have been invidted and now the original citizens are getting unhappy about it.   A giant protest in Britain this weekend at the very time Leo was chiding them for usch unkindness.    And he referred to the plight of the poor "migrant" who encounters a "jwall" to keep him out.  Which of course must refer to America.   

But of course the Pope is King of the World, isn't he?  Or course.  He certainly will be that  if he turns out to bw the Final Antichrist during the Great Tribultion of the last days before Jesus' return.  

GHe also chiden Elon Musk for daying to make a lot of money, this trillion dollars he's ben promised by his company Tesla if he meedts certain business goals on behalf of the company.  

One thing we can conclude fro these concerns is that Leo, like Francis before him, is a Marxist.  He has no respedt for soverign national identity and no respect for capitalism.   Just another Leftie out tyo destroy the basic greatness of the West, the prospertiy and freedoms, which, ironaically perhaps, orignated in the Christian vision.  Pope Leo's sorta kinda ries to sound Christianish but it' isn't Christian at all, it's Marxist, it's AntiChristian.  

Well, I'm watching for the moment when this King of the World decides to make a deal with Israel for seven years.  Then I'll know the Seventieth Week of Daniel has just begun ticking and that unimaginable horrors are going to be unfolding in about three and a half years.  

According to the popular Pretribulation Prremillennial End Times position, the Chruch is to be raptures d to heaven before all this unfolds.    As I've been studying the Book of Reveltation over the last few years I've been coming closer to the idea that this may not be a correct understanding of the scripture, although I would like it to be.    I've been unable to conclude anything certain about this for a long time so whatever happenbs I guess I'll most likely only understand it at that wpoint.d which is why I'm referrig to 

Thte Murder of Charlie Kirk: Something Miraculous on the Wing?

 Even the young men shall faint.  But they who wait upon the LORDD shall renew their srength;  they shall rise on wings of eagles, they shall run and not walk, they shall walk and not faint.

That's  from Isaiah forty something.  I'm also rememberinga line from Psalms somewerhe I think that says They shall bear fruit even in old age.  

Sinc I'm in old age I'm clinging to that one.  I've wanted to die off and on for years now because I think there's nothing for me to do here as I grow blind and lose more and more options in other ways as well for accomplishing anything, as even writing this blog has become almost impossible.  I'm grateful to the Lord that I can still more or less dothis although since I can't read it I'm tying blind and make an awful lot of mistakes I an only hope dn't too seriously garble up the message.  Usually they don't seem to, when I can listen back on the Read Aloud function to find out.  So that is a lot to be grateful for.

But this is to be bout Charlie Kirk.  I was surprised at how hard it hit me.   I like Charlie Kirdk,  he's on the radio here from nien to eleven at night and I often hear at least some of it.  But I didn't have much of a sense of him as a person or personalitiy.  I saw some of his debates on college campuouses that would come up from time to time on You Tube.  To my mind he was one of many patriotic oivoices on the right to celebrate, but he didn't stand out from the crowd in my mind.   Of course to hear he'd been shot wuld be upsetting, but I was surprised at HOW upsetting it was.  I sank into a very sad mood.  I prayed hard during that first hour for his survival.  

But strange things ere already happening.  I kept having the thought as I prayed that maybe it would be a good thing if he died, maybe that would get some TTENTION FOR THE CAUSE, BUT i FELT ABOUT BAD ABOUT THINKING THAT AND WULD APOLOGIZE TO TEH lORD FOR THINKING IT AND TRY TO REDOUBLE MY EFFORTS TO PRAY.  tHEN HE DIED AND i CRIED.     

bY THE STRANGE STUFF i MEAN EVIDENCE OF THE HAND OF gOD IN IT, EVEN IN MY OWN LITTLE HEARING OF IT AND LITTLE KNOWLEDGE OF HIM AND LITLE APPRECIATION OF HIM.   i HAD BEEN DOING SOMETHING IN ANOTHER WROOM BUT FINISHED UP AND SAT DOWN TO LISTEN TO THE MORNING TALK SHOW ON THE RADIO AND THE MOMENT i TURNED ON THE RADIO OUT CAME THE WORDS "bREAKING NEWS, cHARLIE kIRDK HAS BEEN SHOT."  thAT MAY NOT BE A VERY BIG THING BUT THAT KIND OF PRECISE TIMING USUALLY ONLY  HAPPEN S WHEN SONETHING IS EVERY IMPORTANT TO ME OR ON MY IND, THE SITTING DOWN AND TURNING ON THE RADIO EXACTLY TAT THE MOMENT BEFORE THE WORDS bREAKING nEWS COME ON.  eXACTLY.  tHEN vINCE cOLOGNASE, THE TALK SHOW HOST SPOKE ON THE SUBJECT UNTIL THE ENDING OF HIS SHOW NOW LONG AFTEREWARD, WHILE AS FAR AS WE KNEW cHARLIE WAS STILL ALIBVE AND WE WERE ALL PRAYING FOR HIM.   tHEN i WAS HAVIG ALL THESE THOUGHTS ABOUT HOW MAYBE IT WOULD BE BETTER IF HE DIED AND THINKING i NEEDED TO REPENT FOR SUCH THOUGHTS.  iT WAS OVER AN HOUR AFTER THAT THAT THE NEWS CAME IN THAT HE HAD DIED.   i'D REALLY THOUGHT WE MIGHT HAVE ANOTHER MIRALCCLE LIKE THE ONE THAT SAVED tRUMP.   eVEN THOUGH THE REPORTS WERE THAT BLOOD HAD IMMEDIATELY GUSHED FROM THESIDE OF cHARLIE'S NECK SHEN  HE WAS HIT, WHIH DOES NOT SOUND LIKE SOMETHING ONE SURVIVES EASILY IF AT ALL i'D STILL HOPED, EVEN AGAINST ALL THOUSE OTHER THOUGHTS.  tHEN HE DIED AND i SANK INTO A TEARFUL STATE FOR ANOTHER HOUR OR SO, AND ANGRY, ANGRY AT THE lEFT WHO ARE ALWAYS CALLING cHARLIE AND tRUP AND ALL US CONSERVATIVES FOUL NAMES, FASCIST, HATERS, ALL LIES TO PROVOKE PEOPLE INTO HATING US AND MAYBE WANTING TO KILL US.  tHAT'S WHAT KILLED cHARLIE, i KNEW IT THEN AND i KNOW IT NOW, ALTHOUGHT ALL THESE SUPPOSED REASONABLE VOICES CAME ON SAYING hEY WE DON'T KOW WHAT MOTIVATED THIS SHOOTING, HOLD OFF UNTIL WE KNOW.   yEAH YEAH  YEAH, SURE THERE COULD BE SOMETHIG TOTALLY WEIRD ABOUT THE PERSON'S MOTIVSTION BUT NO, NOT REALLY.  pWEOPEL WHO HAVE BEEN CONDITIONED BY THE lEFT TO HATE cHRALIER AND gRUMP AND ALL OF US ON THE rIGHT ARE THE REASON cHRARLIE WAS SHOT, i KNEW IT THEN ALTHOUGH i REFRAINED FROM WRITING A BLOG POST UNTIL i KNOIEW MORE OFR SURE.  aND NOW THAT i DO i JUST KNOW THE SAME THING ONLY i KNOW IT FOR SURE.

bUT THERE WAS THIS ODD THING THAT gOD HAD LED ME TO HEAR THE FIRST ANNOUNCEMENT OF HIS BEING SHOT AT EXACTLY THE RIGHT MOMENT.  nOW i'M THINKING HAT WAS THE hoLY sPIRIT TELING ME THAT cHARLIE WAS GOING TO DIE AND IT WOULD BE A GOOD THING, THE THOUGHT i KEPT FEELING i NEEDED TO APOLOGIZE FOR.  i DON'T THINK THAT WAS MY OWN THOUGHT NOW, i THINK IT WAS gOD SAYING cHARLIE IS GOING TO DIE AND i WAS TOO OBTUSE TO RECOGNIZE hIS VOICE.  

nOW i'M EVEN THINKIUBG HOW THAT PERFET SHOT TO THE JUGULAR WAS A SORT OF MIRACLE LIKE THE MIRACLE THAT SAVED tRUMP, ONLY IN THIS CASE IT WAS A CLEAN DEADLY SHOT cHARLIE COULD NOT POSSIBLY HAVE SURVIVED.  gOD ENGINEERED THIS ONE TOO THOUGHT.  hE COULD HAVE MADE IT MISS AS HE DID THE SHOT AT tRUMP, OR hE CULD HAVE MADE IT ISS IN SUCH A WAY THAT HIS LIFE WOULD HAVE LINGERED QUITE A BIGT LONGER BEFORE HE DIED, BUT NOW IT WAS A CLEAN DEADLY SHOT, ONE SHOT, TO THE JUGULAR.  eVEN AT CLOSE RANGE THAT IS A PRETTY MIRACLULOUS SHOT.

tHEN OVER THE LAST COUOPLE OF DAYS i'VE HEARD VOICES ON THE RADIO OF PEOPLE WHO KNEW chARLIE, SO MANY OF THEM,  ALMOST PICTURING AN USUNUSUAL GREAT MAN, A GREAT SAINT, A GIANT AMONG MEN.   i THOUGHT BUT WOW IS THIS BECAUSE OF THEIR GRIEF THAT YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO SAY SOMETHING SO OVER THE TOP LAUDATORY OF THE PERSON?  sURELY HE WAS A VERY GOOD GUY WHO WORKED HARD AND HAD A BIG TALEN FOR HIS CALLING TO THE YOUNGER ENERATION, i DON'G DOUBT THAT, BUT THEY WERE MAKING HIM INTO SOMETHING BIGGER THAN THAT.  aND WHEN i HEARD HIS WIFE'S SPEECH YESTERDAY AND THEN THE PROGRAM HE USUALLY HOSTED IN WHICH FOUR OF HIS STAFF REMEMBERED HIM, THE IMPRESSION CONTINUED THAT THEY WERE SAYING HE WAS BIGGER THAN YOUR ORDINARY HARD WORKING cHRISTIAN PATRIOT.  i THINK NOW THEY MEAN IT, THEY SEE HIM THAT WAY, ALTHOUGH HE WAS ONLY THIRTY ONE.  hE WAS SOME KIND OF DYNAMO AND RULY DIRVEN BY HIS FAITH IN THE lORD jESUS TO ACCOMPLISH AN AENORMOUSJ UNDERTAKING TOWARD BRINGING THE YOUNGER GENERATION TO A TRUE UNDERSTANDING OF THE aMERICAN VISION AND TO cHRIST AS WELL.   tURNING poiNT IS WHAT HE NAMED HIS ORGANIZATION, AND IT SOUNDS LIKE IT'S BEEN STAFFED WELL BY HUNDREDS OR EVEN THOUGHSANDS OF OTHER HARD WORKERS FOR THE CAUSE AND IT WILL GO ON, AND HIS WIFE SOUNDED  STRONG AND DETERMIEND TO MAKE IT GO ON.  i'M VERUY IMPRESSED AND NOW i'M THINKING THIS IS gOD'S PLAN, gOD IS GOING TO ELEVATE tURNING pOINT AND ACCOMPLISH SOMETHING GRULY MIRACLULOUS BY THE DEATH OF cHARLIE kIRK.

i HAVE MANY HOPEFUL THOUHTS ABOUT WHAT COULD BE ACCOMPLISHED , MAY MANY MANY.  aND i COULD WRITE A LOT MORE BUT NOWT NOW, MAYBE LATER.

qWLL AT LEAST  A LITTLE MORE NOW.   

i HEARD AN NTERVIEW WITH THE UOING MAN AT THE UNCERSITY IN uTUAL WHO WAS ONE OF THE FIRST TO CHALLENGE cHARLIE AT THE MIRACLE  GOOD GRIEF i WROTE MIRACLE AND MEANT TO WRITE MICROPHONE.  aNYWAY HE WAS TRYING TO CONVINCE cHRARLIE THAT HE WAS WRONG ABOUT THE VIOLENCE ON THE lEFT, ESCPECIALLY AMONG THE TRANSGENDERS i THINK, WHEN THE SHOT RANG OUT AND HE WITNESSED cHARLIE BEING HIT.  aCCORDING TO THE DESCRITPIONS i HEARD THE YOUNG MAN PUT HIS NANDS OVER HIS FACW AND VERWAS VERY SHAKEN UP.  fUNNY THAT MANY HAD SPECULATED THAT MAYBE HIS QUESTION WAS SOME KIND OF SIGN OT THE SHOOTER, MAKING HIM INTO A CONSPIRATOR TO KILL cHARLIE BUT AS HE HIMSLEF DESCRIBED HIS EXPERIENCE IT BECAME VERY CLEAR THAT HE WAS IN NOW WAY INOVLVED.  hE WAS TRULY SHAKEN AT THE DEATH OF cHARLIE AND SPOKE AS IF TO THE SHOOTER, HAVE E LOST TRACK OF THE FACT THAT THIS IS A HUNAN BEING.  hE DIDN'T AGREE WITH cHARLIE ABOUT A LOT OF THINGS BUT HE WAS A HUNAN BEING, A HUSBAND AND A FATHER, AND SO SAID THE YOUNG MAN WAS HE WHO HAD ASKED THE QUESTION.  wqE DON'T KILL THOSE WE DISAGREE WITH.  hE WAS CLEARLY TRULY UPSET AND i'M VERY GLAD TO HEAR A PERSON ON THE lET SAY SOMETHING SO CLEARLY HEARTFELT AGAINST THE OTHERS ON HIS SIDE WHO ARE ALL GLEEFULLY BLAMING cHARLIE FOR HIS OWN DEATH, SAYING HOW HE WAS A DIVISIVE VOICE AND A PROVOCAGEUR WHEN ALL HE WEVER DID WAS QUIETLY AND KINDLE STATE HIS OWN CONSERVATIVE OPINION ON MANY SUBJECTS.  tHEWY ARE THE HATERS, NOT cHARLIE.  tHEY ARE THE FASCISTS, NOT cHARLIE    bUT THIS YOUNG MAN, APPARENTLY ALSO A HUSBAND AND FATHER, ALTHOUGH HE IS ALSO ON THE lEFT, ALSO A dEMOCRATE, aLSO IN OPPOSITION TO cHARLIE ANDTHE REST OF US ON THE rIGHT.  HE DOESN'T SHARE THOSE ALL TOO COMON HATEFUL CALLS TO KILL PEOPLE THEY DON'T AGREE WITH, FIRST DEHUAMNIZING THEM AS EVIL FASCISTS AND HATERS.  sOMEHOME ON ONE OF THE SHOWS LIKENED THIS ATTITTUDE TO THE VOICE ON THE RADIO IN sWANDA THAT CALLED THE tUTSIS "COCKRAOSCHES" AND DEHUMANIZED THEM IN THE SAME WAY, SETTING THEM UP FOR THE GREAT SLAUGHTER OF THEM THAT SOON FOLLOWED.  tHAT'S THE PREDICTABLE CONSEQUENCE OF DEMOMIZING HYOUR OPPOSITION AND THAT IS WHAT GOT cHARLIE KILLED.  aND WHY THEY KEEP TRYING TO KILL tRUMP.  tRUMP IS NOTHING BUT A STRONG PATRIOT AND HARDPOWRKING pRESIDENT WHO WANTS TO RESTORE THE TRUE VALUES OF aMERICA BUT THEWY TRY TO TURN HIM INTO SOME KIND OF MONSTER AND APPARENTLY A SCARY LOT OF THEM BELIEVE THE PROPAGANDA.

i WAS RECENTLY PRAYING ABOUT ALL THIS.  hOW TDO WE FIGHT THE LIES?  sOME LISTEN FROM TIME TO TIME AND ACTAULLY CHANGE THEIR MINDS.  tHAT'S WONDERFUL , BUT IT'S VERY FEW AND THERE ARE EVEN SOME WHO APAPRENTLY CAN SEE THEY'VE BEEN LIED TO AND STILL DON'T CHANGE THEIR VIEWS THAT WERE BASED ON THOSE LIES.  i DON'T GET IT BUT i'VE SEEN IT HAPPEN.  sO THE TAKS OF CHAING MINDS SEEMS INSURMOUNTABLE.  i WAS PRAYING ABOUT THAT.  hOW, lORD, DON'T yOU HAVE TO ACT?  wE CAN'T DO ANYTGNG.  tHEY HAVE US SILENCED.  tHE lEFT HEARDS ONLY THE PROPGANDA MACHINE AND THEY DON'T BOTHER TO GO LOOKIN FOR ANY OTHER POINT OF VIEW.  iT'S ALL OUT HERE BUT THEY WILL; NEVER FIND IT BECAUSE THEY HAE NO REASON TO LOOK FOR IT.  lORD, yOU MUST ACT.

i WAS PRAYING THAT NOWT LONG BEFORE i GOT THE NEWS ABOUT cHARLIE kIRDK.  nOW i'M THINKING HOPEFULLY THAT MAYBE i'M SWEEING THE BEGINNING OF THE ANSWER TO THAT PRAYER.   cHARLIE HAD THE EAR OF MANY IN THE YUYOUNGER GENERATION.  tHAT WAS HIS MISSIO.  i'M HOPING IT WILL ONLY GROW FAST AND FURIOUS FROM NOW ON.

aND i WAS VERY IMPRESSED WITH cHRARLIE'S WIFE eRICA AS SHE SPOKE ABOUT HIM, TEARFUL BUT ABLE TO CONTROL HERSELF.  a TRUE cHRISTIAN SPIRIT COMES FRO HER AND FROM cHARLIE.  tHAT'S WHAT WE NEED.  tHE KNOWLEDGE THAT THE lORD IS IN CHARGE OF ALL OF IT EVEN WHEN WE DON'T KNOW WHAT OR WHY hE IS DOING ANY OF IT UNTIL AFTER WE START TO SEE THE RESULTS, SOMETIMES LONG INTO THE FUTURE.   bUGT i THINK WE CAN SEE HIM WORKING ALREADY.  i CAN.   aND eRICA SOUNDED so SRONG IN HER DETERMINATION TO KEEP tRUNING poINT A DRIVING FORCE IN aMERICA.  kNOWING THAT THE lORD IS IN CHARGE, i WAS SAYING, THAT'S THE cHRISTIAN MINDSTET.  eVEN WHEN hE TAKES OUR BELOVED HUSBAND WITH A PROMISING , VERY POROMISING CALLING IN THE WORLD, YOU KNOW hE KNOWS WHAT hE IS DOIG EVEN IF YOU DON'T.  cHARLIE HAD TO DIE.  uNLESS A GRAIN OF WHEAT FALL TO THE GROUND A ND DIE IT BEARS NO FRUIT, OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT, jESUS SAID.  iT WAS FALL TOT HE GROUND AND DIEDE AND THEN IT WILL BECOME A GREAT AND FLOURISHING PLANT.    jUST THE FACT THAT SO MANY OF US WERE SO FIRED UP AT HIS DEATH IS A START.  i HAVE NO PARTICULAR REASON TO BE FIRED UP AT THE DEATH OF cHARLIE kIRK, AS i KEEP SAYING.  sAD, SURE, O H THEY GOT ANOTHER ONE OF US BUT WE'LL JUST KEEP GOING ETEC ETC ETC.  nOW THERE'S SOMETHIG MUCH BIGGER AND CSTRANGER TABOUT THIS ONE.  lETT IT BEAR FRUIT, lORD.

eRICA ALSO COMES ACROSS AS A TRUE cHRISTIAN IN HER SOLID BELIEF THAT SHE WILL SEE cHARLIE AGAIN, THAT HE IS OF COURSE ALIV AND WITH THE loRD.  sOMETIMES PEOPLE SAY SUCH THINGS BUT IT DOESN'T CARRY MUCH CONVICTION.  wITH eRICA YOU KOW SHE BELIEVES IT.  sHE KNOWS gOD HAS A PLAN, SHE KNOWS gOD KNOWS WHAT hE IS DOING,  SHE KNOWS HER JOB IS JUT TO KEEP THE PLAN ALIVE AND WORK HARDER THAN EVER, SHE KNOWS THAT aLL THINGS WORK TO THE GOOD FOR WTHOSE WHO LOVE OD AND ARE THE CALLED ACCORDING TO hIS PURPOSES.  sHE QUEOTED THAT AND i THINK i HEARD cHARLIE QUOTE IT RECENTLY SOMEWHERE TOO.  rOMAND EIGHT?  TWENTY EIGHT.    

oH oLORD  oH lORD, IS THIS THE REVIVAL SO MANY OF US HAVE PRAYDED FOR OVER THE YEARS?  fINALLY?  oH ONE MORE THOUGHT.   fUNNY THOUGHT.   aS cHARLIE'S tURNING poINT STAFF WERE TALKING ABOUT HIM ON THE RADIO SHOW LAST NIGHT  ONE OF THEM MENTIONED THAT HE HAD SOME RATHER PECULIAR EATING HABITS, APPARENTLY DUE TO HIS CONCERN TO STAY HEALTHY.  sUCH AS EATING NOTHING UBUT ONE FOOD FOR A WHOLE MEAL, SUCH AS ALL MEAT FOR ONE MEAL FOR INSTANCE.   

oNE OF HIS MEALS MIGHT BE A GIANT BOWL OF NOTHING BUT BROCCOLI.  aND THAT MADE ME LAUGH, BECUASE i'V HAD THAT SAME MEAL MIYSELF TWICE ISN THE LAST WEEK.  i COOK THE BROCCOLI FOR ABOUT TEN MINUTES IN CHICKEN BROTH AND EAT THE WHOLE THING, ABOUT A , NO, ABOUT TWO HEADS OF BROCCOLI CHAPOOED UP ACCORDING TO THE INSTRUCTION FO cHRIS wARTK IN HIS BOOK cHRISTS   cHRIS bEAT cANCER WHICH i'VE BEEN LISTENING TO LATELY.   hE GIVES GENERAL ADVICE FOR A DRASTIC HEALTH PROMOTING DIET IN HIS CHAPTERS EIGHT AND NINE AND i'VEW BEEN LISTENIG OVER AND OVER TO THEM AND TRYING TO ICOROPORATE THE ADVICE INTO MY OWN SITUATION AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE.   hE WOULD EAT THE BROCCOLI RAW AS PART OF HIS GIANT DAILY RAW SALAD, BUT i DON'T LIKE IT RAW ALTHOUGH i LIKE ALL THE OTHER VEGETABLES RAW, SO i EAT THEM IN A SALD OR SOMETIMTES JUIST MUNCH THEM WHOLE IF i'M TOO TIRED TO MAKE A SALAD, BUT i COOK THE BROCCOLI AND EAT IT SEAPRATELY.  cHRIS wARD WOULDN'T ADD CHICKEN BROTH BECAUSE HE GENERAL AVOICES MEAT PERODUCTS, NOT EXCLUSIVELY BUT MOTCSTLY AND CHICKEN BROTH GRANULES ARE OF COURSE A PROCESSED FOOD WHICH IS TO BE SHUNNED BY ANYONE TRYING TO GET HEALTHY.   aNYUWAY IT HELPS WE LIKE THE BROCCOLI BETTER.  sO i'LL EAT THIS GIANT BOWL OF CHICKEN BROTH FLAVORED BROCCOLI.   aND THEN i FOUND OUT THAT cHARLIE kIRK MIGHT EAT SOMETHING SIMILAR ONCE INA A WHILE.     

jUST ANOTHER LITTLE WAY THE lORD SEEMS TO BE LINKING ME UP WITH cHARLIE, SAYING HPERHAPS i'M TO WORK TO SUPPORT HIS MISSION SOMEHOW OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT, WHICH i'D BE QUITE HAPPY TO DO IF THERE IS ANY WAY i CAN DO IT.  wELL, i CAN WRITE ABOUT IT AS i'M DOING HERE, AND THAT MAY BE THE BEST i CAN DO BUT IT'S SOMETHING.  i SUPPOSE THE lORD IS LINKING UP A LOT OF chRISTIANS TO cHARLIE'S WORK THESE DAYS.  i'M STARTING TO THINK tURNING pOINT IS hiS BIG PROJECT RIGHT NOW AND WE'RE ALL BEING DDRAWN INTO IT.