Good and Bad Mysticisms Part 2

 No, there is no higher plane, there's no surpassing experience;  there is no deeper life.  Christ is all in all.

This is John MacArthur from 7:56 on the sermon I mentioned in the last post on this subject, where he is preaching from Colossians 2:18    ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e0fETODHsoM),

The frustrating thing is that he's using the term mysticism only to refer to today's charismatics and televangelists who are fleecing the flock, selling "miracles," seeing angels and having other sorts of visions and so on.   There are also some self-appointed teachers who claim o hear from God that are included among these deceivers, such as Beth Moore.  I don't know anything about her except for the occasional You Tube clip, I just know she is one MacArthur and others identify as a false teacher, someone who claims to hear from God directly for her teachings.  There are also some books I haven't read, such as The Shack and Jesus Calling and others that are warned against in the same way.    I know very little of them and the little I know suggests that the criticism is quite correct.

But then these false teachers are not distinguished from the mystics Tozer presents in his books.   There are teachers who do talk of a higher life, a deeper life who focus on the biblical portrait of God and Christ in a way that exalts them and builds affection toward them in the reader.  These are very far from the signs-and-wonders kind of thinking MacArthur particularly condemns.  He calls it all a big ego trip with false humility, using the terms from the Colossians passage to brand the whole range of phenomena that go by the term "mysticism" which unfortunately would vilify an Isaac Watts or a Gerhard Tersteegen along with an Oral Roberts or a Benny Hinn or a Beth Moore.

Again, I wish I had another term for the experiences I've been trying to talk about, that Tozer calls Mysticism, that do not deserve MacArthur's sweeping denunciations.  He brands all "mysticism" in terms of the Colossians passage, as false humility, worship of angels etc., and sums them all up as a "big ego trip" that is all about denying the sufficience of Christ.

I'm not even sure Mysticism is the right word for the phenomena he is talking about.  I'd be more inclined to call it a form of witchcraft myself.   He already showed the falseness of the Charismatic Movement in his Strange Fire Conference.  There is this Contemplative Prayer movement in some churches now too, that sounds like another big deception.    Heard one practitioner of that movement, pparently a Roman Catholic, describe it as a constant awareness of God AND everything around us.  So that everything is prayer.  Pretty far from anything biblical I'd say.

So most likely everything he denounces as mysticism should be denounced.  The problem is that the term also includes some of the very best devotional writing in the history of Christianity, most of which I'm sure he would himself acknowledge, such as the humns of Wesley and Watts.   Others he may not be as familiar with, such as Madame Guyon and Gerhard Tersteegen, whose poetry Tozer includes in his book of Mystical Verse.  They are both called Mystics by the scholars, but their writings are completely Christ-exalting.

He and others like Justin Peters rightly say the false teachers deny the sufficiency of Christ and the sufficiency of scripture. HOWEVER, what this does in practice is confine us all to a very limited idea of the sufficiency of Christ.  As Tozer puts it, we are confined to a very narrow or shallow idea of Justification by Faith, and confined to avoid any kind of further seeking of a deeper life IN CHRIST, a deeper knowledge of Christ, a deeper love of Christ.  And since some of those who do pursue THIS KIND of deeper life have superntural experiences they come under suspicion just for that reason and tarring them with the Word of Faith apostates is thereby seemingly justified in a way that is terribly unjust to some of the most serious Christians..

The "more" that is sought from this other mystical camp is more love of God, more knowledge of God, more mortification of sin, more growth in humility and compassion and all the fruits of the Spirit.   This is because somehow we do get stuck in a rather worldly-feeling Christian life.  Perhaps we shouldn't.  Perhaps if we just pursued the means of grace more persistently we would accomplish what we are seeking, but I don't think it can be denied that the general tenor of many churches is really fleshly and hardly spiritual at all.   So we look for a "more" that will crucify the flesh in reality and grow us in grace in reality and increase our love of God in reawlity because for whatever reason the usual methods employed in the churches are not doing that and when we get these exhortations that "there is no more," and "there is no higher life" and so on, we may just feel cheated and spiritually deprived.  Yes you can have Bible studies and prayer times and have devotional times at home, regularly read the Bible and so on, and still somehow maintain what I'm calling this fleshly tone in the churches.  

I want to include some lines from some of the verses in Tozer's book but I think I'll start with a few scripture verses mostly off the top of my head that I think call us to this higher life that is being denied us.  It's not that these are not preached on, it's not that we aren't familiar with them, but their real power to change us and grow us somehow gets slighted.  

Thou shalt love the LORD thy God with all thy heart and with all thy soul and with all thy mind and with all thy strength

John 17:3   And this is life eternal, that they may know You, the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom You have sent.

Jeremiah 29:13  And you shall seek Me and find Me when you seek Me with all your heart.

As the deer panteth for the waters so my soul panteth after Thee.

Song of Songs   My Beloved is mine and I am His

John 14:17  He dwelleth with you and shall be in you

He who comes to God must believe that He is and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him

 I wanted to include some of Tozer's verse and maybe some more scirpture but now I just want to get this posted so I'll either add some to this later or start a new post for the purpose.

Another Near-Death Vision and How it Plays into the End Times Tribulation Scenario

    This is a digression from the theme of mysticism in my personal attempt to renew my spiritual life, to return for a moment to the End Times scenario and the role I've come to  think is likely to be played by all these "visits to heaven" that have been proliferating in the last few decades.  They all seem to be designed to persuade people that there is an afterlife, and some of them purport to give the Christian view of the afterlife.  Personal experiences seem to have a great deal of persuasive power no matter how much they contradict each other or teach clearly false doctrine.  

I just saw this one at You Tube and decided I should listen to it.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cDbGbzu7a2w&t=3s    It's about the experience after death of a young Buddhist monk in Myanmar (Burma) some years ago.   He describes walking across a flat plain and crossing a river, at which point he sees a "lake of fire" and encounters a demon spirit who answers his questions about what he is seeing.

The demon spirit says he is the King of Hell, the Destroyer, and tells the monk to look into the lake of fire.  There he sees his Buddhist teacher who had died in a car accident and asks why he is there. since he was a good Buddhist teacher  The King of Hell says 

"Yes he was a good teacher but he did not believe in Jesus Christ;  that's why he is in Hell."

He then sees Gautama Buddha in the fire and is told that he too is there "because he did not believe in the eternal God."  Then he sees a famous revolutionary leader of Myanmar who is there "because he didn't believe in Jesus Christ"  and then the giant Goliath who was killed by the young David according to the biblical story, and the King of Hell explains that he is there "becuase he blasphemed the eternal God."   He has to explain who David and Goliath were to the monk who has never heard any of these things before.

He is told to go back where he came from because his name isn't written down for the Lake of Fire (not that it would be.  We are told in the Bible that our names are in the Book of Life or not, those slated for Hell aren't written anywhere)_  He is to become a Christian.   He comes to a fork in the road, he sees a couple of men walking on the broader road and follows them, seeks them killed.  He goes back to the fork and takes the narrower road instead which eventually turns to gold and he meets a man who eventually identifies himself as the one who has "the keys to heaven."  He tells the monk he can't go to heaven now but "if he follows Jesus Christ" he can go there at the end of his life.  "The man's name was Peter."

Hm, we seem to be in a Catholic Vision where Peter has the keys to heaven?

"Peter" directs him to see what is supposed to be the Creation of man.  He sees "the eternal God" who says to an angel, "Let us make man."    The angel objects, saying "they will do wrong" but man is created anyway, the man named Adam.  God "blows" at him to bring him to life.

Some bad theology in this vision, but of course the monk wouldn't know that since he knows nothing at all about Christianity or the Bible.  However, Christians listening to the story should know it's false, but I gather from the Comments below the video that they don't.

So the monk is told to go back to his life and tell everybody that they must "believe in Jesus Christ or they will go to Hell."  

OK.  So.  When one first hears a story like this from such a sincere-sounding person it is hard to find fault with it.  You can get persuaded thta for whatever reason God saves some people in such a direct way, by teaching them the gospel through a near-death experience of the afterlife.   Such stories have been coming out of Muslim parts of the world too.  There's something about testimony based on direct experience that is persuasive even when it is full of obvious deceptions when you take the time to think about it.

The main clue to this one as a deception is the repeated phrase about how one must "believe in Jesus Christ."  That is what passes for the gospel here, but the true gospel is never given.  "Believe in Jesus Christ" means what?  Beleive He exists or existed?  What does it mean?  There is nothing in this vision about Jesus' dying to pay for our sins, THAT being the gospel of salvation.  You can believe in his existence, you can like his teachings, you can "follow Him" even, but if you never receive the new birth on the basis of His death to pay for your sins you are not a Christian, and it is very possible that none of those who beleive this vision are saved.   

There are other deceptions in the vision though that one alone should be enough.  In the Bible account of the Creation God says "Let Us make man in our image."  He's not talking to an angel, He's talking to the other two Persons of the triune Godhead.   And God "breathed" into Adam, didn't "blow" at him.  

The demons are apparently capable of creating such scenarios to deceive people and they seem to be working overtime on this particular kind of deception as the last days close in on us..  

The deception that interests me the most in this case  is the portrayal of "Peter" as the holder of the keys of heaven.  Why is this vision teaching a Roman Catholic misinterpretation?

Well, here's my thought on it:  I have been arguing here that the final Antichrist is most likely going to be the Pope, and if the Rapture occurs within the next few years that would be Pope Francis.  The Harlot Church of the Book of Revelation clearly represents the Roman Church and although there may be a part played by Islam in the final scenario the Revived Roman Empire prophesied as the setting for the playing out of the Great Tribulation looks to me like it's essentially the recovery of the Holy Roman Empire that ruled over Europe in the Middle Ages.  It never really died if you think of it as the outworking of the Roman Church which has never gone away although it lost its civil power at the Reformation..  The Vatican is a nation state unto itself so all the pieces are in place for whatever event allows them all to come together in the revived Empire.  As I've seen it, with the true Christians taken out of the way at the Rapture, the Pope, who has international standing anyway, will emerge through a covenant with Israel as the man who can bring peace to a chaotic world, the Antichrist who will rule the entire world, not just Europe.  The Roman Church will recover both the religious and the civil power it lost at the Reformation, but much more power this time around./  

SO, I'm thinking this vision experienced by the Buddhist monk is one of the ways Satan is preparing for this scenario to unfold by creating a population of deceived "believers in Christ" who contribute to the expansion of the worldwide influence of the Roman Church, that institution being the core element in the false religion of the Tribulation period.   Somehow Islam will have to come on board, probably through their reverence for Jesus as a Prophet.  Not sure how that's going to play out, but somehow in the end there's going to be this pastiche of religions coming together as One Religion, presided over by the Harlot Church of Rome.  the Popes have been working hard to bring all religions under their wing for decades now.    The final world religion has to be at least a hodgepodge that can be taken for "Christianity" by the vast majority of people who have no way of judging it.,  

Remember, this whole scenario is Satan's doing, his masterpiece you might say.  He invented the Roman Church and the papacy, he also invented Islam, both creations of his evil genius.  The whole drama of Planet Earth is a playing out of the war of Satan against God, and the final act will be Satan's Day when he gets to rule the world through his Antichrist, putting himself in God's place, and gets to do his worst to destroy humanity which he hates.  He was defeated at the Cross, he knows his time is short, but he's pulling out all the stops for the Grand Finale.

There will be dissenters.  There will be those who will refuse the Mark of the Beast.  Many of them will die as martyrs.  Others may go on living into the Millennial Kingdom.   A vast number of people will be saved through the most miserable time anyone has ever seen on Earth.

But I'm picturing the main engine of the False Religion to be the Roman Church and its revived Inquisition.

Come soon, Lord Jesus.  

Amen.

Good and Bad "Mysticisms"

So I heard some more of MacArthur on the subject of mysticism and it just gets more frustrating.  ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e0fETODHsoM&t=71s)   He's preaching on Colossians 2:18 which he calls a warning against "mysticism."   He likes the NASB and my favorite is the KJB, and since the KJB can be hard to read I'm also including the NKJB (New King James) as possibly clearer, so here are three different translations of that passage: 

New American Standard 

 Let no one keep defrauding you of your prize by delighting in self-abasement and the worship of the angels, taking his stand on visions he has seen, inflated without cause by his fleshly mind,

New King James Version

Let no one cheat you of your reward, taking delight in false humility and worship of angels, intruding into those things which he has not seen, vainly puffed up by his fleshly mind,

King James Bible
Let no man beguile you of your reward in a voluntary humility and worshipping of angels, intruding into those things which he hath not seen, vainly puffed up by his fleshly mind,

There is nothing in the scripture itself which labels this kind of behavior as "mysticism" so this is MacArthur's own idea of what mysticism is.  It makes me wish I had another term for what I've been talking about here but the problem is there isn't one.  Better the phenomena described above were called "occultism" or  "Gnosticism."   As MacArthur continues his talk he uses terminology associated with Gnosticism, and there are other places in the New Testament where Gnositicm is specifically warned against.  When I first startied reading the writers identified as the Mystics, during the early years of reading back in the late 80s, those years that led to my becoming a Christian,  that's what they were called and changing their name isn't going to happen.  But they are not anything like what that scripture passage is describing and what MacArthur thinks is mysticism.   It is also not  Gnosticism.  One of my atheist friends during those years didn't like the "fundamentalist" direction my thinking was taking and gave me a book about the Gnostics, which for some reason have a higher standing among intellectual types than Christianity does.  I could only read a few pages of it.  It so blasphemed God it frightened me and I couldn't go on readingf.  I like to think that's because I really was already one of the Lord's sheep who hear His voice and won't follow any other.

Even in my own reading, however, I did come across people who were called Mystics that not only did not attract me, they seemed to be pursuing a spirit completely different from the love of God I'd been finding in the ones that did attract me.  Jacob Boehme was positively scary and offputting, so was Mechtilde of Magdeburg.  So it has to be acknowledged that there are different mysticisms and some are not good, some are probably witchcraft rather than anything truly Christian.   Perhaps Edgar Cayce could be put in the bad cateogry.  He had some kind of supernatural or spiritual experiences and was considered to be a healer and thought of himself as a Christian, but there's really nothing in his writings about God or Jesus except as perhaps instruments of the paranormal phenomena he experienced.

I hope I don't have to get more deeply into all of this.  I'm no expert, I've merely read enough to have a general idea of the spiritual territory that's involved in these questions, and I've already done some posts on it in the past.  In the upper right margin I have listed Andrew Strom's film on how Kundalini Yoga has found a welcome in some churches and needs to be recognized as demonic and repudiated.  Hinduism loves to make claims about Jesus Christ and to confuse Biblical teachings with their demonic practices and Christians should not be falling for this.   Practices of the eastern religions have found a place in the churches because Christians are naive.   Yoga is not necessarily harmless for instance.   God says in Hosea 4:6: 

My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge   

They have rejected the knowledge of the true God and therefore He will reject them.  They have forgotten His law and He will forget their children.    It is the "liberal" churches that invite the eastern religions in, and they are open to the charge of rejecting the true God and forgetting His law.  But unfortunately some of the eastern practices entice the merely naive who are not strongly grounded in their faith..  

Maybe I will have to say more about all that after all eventually  But this all came up because I wanted to renew my own spiritual life and immersing myself in devotional reading has often accomplished that for me.  Devotional reading such as Tozer's Pursuit of God and his book of Mystical Verse can certainly revive my spiritual life, but it also raises these questions about what mysticism is.  I usually answer that it is the intense longing after God that inspired Tozer and those writers he includes in his book of verse, that takes the longing soul deeper or higher into the Christian life than many others go or want to go.  

One of the most famous mystics is John of the Cross who wrote the poem "Dark Night of the Soul" and the book in which he elucidates the poem at great length, "The Ascent of Mount Carmel."  

Here are the first few stanzas of the poem.  It is considered to be a mystical poem.  

On a dark night,
Kindled in love with yearnings–oh, happy chance!–
I went forth without being observed,
My house being now at rest.

In darkness and secure,
By the secret ladder, disguised–oh, happy chance!–
In darkness and in concealment,
My house being now at rest.

In the happy night,
In secret, when none saw me,
Nor I beheld aught,
Without light or guide, save that which burned in my heart

 If you read the book about it you'll certainly understand that there are some methodological issues involved, as he discusses how prayer is practiced in a way that subdues the flesh and releases the spirit.  It's been a long time since I read the book and I'm sure I don't know exactly what he means by many of these figures, but at least the "dark night" refers to the subduing of the flesh, perhaps the overactive wandering mind, perhaps the senses,  as does his "house being now at rest,"   It is when the clamoring of the life of the flesh  is "dark" and "at rest" that the spirit is most alive to the things of God.  

That is what this poem is about, the soul's drawing near to God in prayer, or the"ascent" to the presence of God in the quietness of the flesh and the world.   "Be still and know that I am God" may be the apt scripture reference.  In a sense it is a treatise in itself of the practices that lead to the experience of God;s love and our love to Him.  "Kindled in love with yearnings" sets the emotional tone, which is probably the engine that drives the whole undertaking.  Much  of the poem probably refers to the moritification of sin and the growth of virtues such as humility, but I'd have to reread the book to know how he talks about those things.  The emphasis on being unobserved, concealed etc., suggests we're not talking about a state of false humility, and there is no hint of anything like the worship of angels here.  This is not what Paul is warning against in Colossians 2:18.

The poem is about how by subduing the flesh and the world the soul is enabed through prayer to have a deep loving experience of God.  THIS is what I've understood to be Mysticism.  

A pursuit of God in prayer that starts out in the right direction can take a person deep enough to start having "supernatural" experiences of various sorts.   Or as the mystics may think of it, these may be rewards from God, or "consolations" from God.  Tozer isn't writing about that aspect of things but to read any of the mystics themselves will make that clear.  Yes there is a deeper or higher Christian life but it isn't something different from Christian life in general, it's the result of a more intense pursuit of the biblical revelations of God.  

HOWEVER,

In that pursuit it is possible to get off into the "spirit realms" if you don't know what you are doing or you let yourself be attracted too much to whatever supernatural experiences you might have.  The Christian mystics themselves are always warning against taking such phenomena too seriously because you often can't tell where it is coming from.  You may assume it is from God when it is in reality a demonic counterfeit.  So they recommend simply leaving them alone, not dwelling on them, not trying to hold on to them.. 

As I hear more of MacArthur's sermon I have to say that he's right about what he's right about.  There is a lot of what he is calling mysticism in the churches these days and it is dangerous.  I'm in this uncomfortable position of trying to defend what I think of as a genuine Bible-based experience that comes to some people as a result of a true passionate love of the true God and Jesus Christ and not an ego trip and not a pursuit of experience for experience's sake or for thrills,   As I said I wish I could just use a different term for it but Tozer called it mysticism and it has a long history of going by that name so that's not going to work.  Guess I'm going to have to continue this is in the next post.

Trump is the real Democratic Party we used to know; Hillsdale College could teach us true American History; and HCQ should be saving lives

 I only got to hear a few snippets of Rush Limbaugh's show this morning but it was enough to produce three gold nuggets to mention here.    Nuggets of perspective that could get America back on track if enough people lerned from them.

Realized that two of them came from callers to the show.  Of course Rush himself is full of good stuff but oh well in this case it happened to be incidental things.

And the third was just an ad for Hillsdale College which is offering free online video courses on American history.  I think if enough Americans imersed ourselves in those it could go a long way to bringing us back to the America we were meant to be.

that's one nugget.  The second was the caller who said she'd been a Democrawt until she realized that the old Democratic Party is no longer what it was but that Trump is really that old Democratic Party.  She's right.  Trump is the real Democratic Party.  Now if only so many misguided Democrats recognized that fact.

And nugget three was the caller who was lamenting the bad press heaped on the drug Hydroxychloroquine since if used in the right dose at the onset of COVIC it is as good as a cure for it.  The bad press has come from a  few really stupid studies of the drug's MISUSE, in the wrong dose at the wrong time with patients already dying of conditions other than COVID.  But if it's used at the right time, in the right dose with Zithromax and Zinc it even saves the lives of people with these co-morbid conditions.   I've posted information on this earlier.

So people are dying who don't have to die because this drug has been buried under propaganda through studies that may have been politically motivated in the first place, since they were so bad they shouldn't even have been published.   

More of the story:  Democrats realize where your Party really is these days and leave thtqa anti-American Marxist-Communist monstrosity the other one has become;  Democrts, Republicans and everybody else:  sign up for the Hillsdale course which you can take at your convenience; and everybody make sure you have a source of HCQ with Zithromax and Zinc lined up in case you get COVID.

There is a true Mysticism that is Biblical.

 Oh groan.  So I've been writing about mystical verse as presented by Tozer, and he has the same idea of mysticism I've had since I first encountered it in the first years of seeking God.  It's about God, it's about Jesus, no it is not about some kind of method of meditation or even faculties of the soul although I know some of the old mystics spent time on that subject.  I've known there is a current movement in the church that calls itself mystical, that teaches something it calls Contemplative Prayer but the little I know about it hasn't attracted me in the slightest.  It isn't the mysticism I'm talking about, that Tozer displays in his books.  

Why does language get so bollixed up anyway so that we talk at cross purposes about such important things?  I just took a look, a look that lasted half a minute I think, at a video of one Dallas Willard who is one of the teachers of this Contemplative Prayer movemeht and he was about to give a definition of the "will."  Yes that's what I'd begun to grasp, this movement is about US, it's about the human being, it is not about God.  Or God is secondary.  What we are to learn is something about our own faculties and so on.  This is not the mysticism of Tozer.

I heard a few minutes of John MacArthur on the subject, calling the Contemplative Prayer movement "bunk" and going on to define it as looking within for spiritual intuition, and it's all about this personal intuition as he understands it.  

Well, maybe it is as this movement is practicing it.  I'm not going to find out because I'm pursuing another kind of mysticism and I don't think I need to know more about that movement for this purpose.  According to Tozer we should think of the Wesleys as mystics with their magnificient verses and hymns to God and the spiritual life of a Christian.  Isaac Watts is a mystic to Tozer.  Surely MacArthur isn't oging to dismiss Watts in the way he dismisses this current movement.  But that's the problem with how language is being used in these different contexts.

I'm definitely being inspired by the book of mystical verse Tozer put together.  Solidly biblical thoughts about such subjects as the incomprehensible greatness of God, about the nature of God the Trinity, about Jesus, His suffering for us, His love to us, about the Cross he  endured for us, about our undeservingness, the meanness of our fallen nature and God's astonishing mercy to such ingrates, all biblical Christian themes as appreciated by different believers who thought more deeply about them than the rest of us.

If the current movement called "mysticism" that MacArthur is debunking should be so debunked and dismissed, this other mysticism should not and I've been trying to get across here how we need it.  Its focus is loving God, expresseions of love to God by some who pursuied it passionately, beyond the level of most Christians in the churches.  Simply because we don't invest the time in its pursuit, we've never been exhorted to deepen our experience of God as these mystics did.  In fact we are sometimes exhorted NOT to pursue these things.   

As Tozer analyzes the problem in the beginning of his book "The Pursuit of God"  this may largely be due to a shallow understanding of Justification by Faith that keeps us stuck always in the beginning stages of salvation rather than prompted to seek the very life salvation bought for us, the whole point of it all, "to glorify God and enjoy Him forever" as the Westminster Shorter Catechism puts it.  It's a tragedy.  Sometimes God has sent true revival into a church or community and His presence alone teaches us that there is more to the Christian life than salvation, but somehow the lesson doesn't get learned.

Perhaps this current Contemplative Prayer movement could be understood as one of those reactions against this unnecessary limitation on the Christian life, a misguided reaction, a reaction that went wrong as so many of them do.  The point is to know God as He shows Himself in scripture, not to "intuit" anything else or get all wrapped up in the capacities of our human spiritual faculties.  Yes we have the "means of grace" and if we put enough energy into those we might become mystics too, Prayer alone touches God.  If our prayers are brief and not focused on knowing God we won't become mystics, but a determination to seek God Himself and know Him better is all it takes to become a mystic like those who wrote the verse in Tozer's book.

Even the Catholic mystics sound like Protestants in this book, because they are drawn to the true God and the false practices of Catholicism simply do not draw them at all because they are false.  They are seeking God Himself who is not to be found in those practices so they simply are not enticing to them.  Scripture itself reveals God and that entices them.

Revival on many levels

Q:  What is the chief end of man?

A:  The chief end of man is to glorify God and to enjoy him forever. 

--------------------From the Westminster Shorter Catechism 

 Doesn't that tell us what we should be doing with our time here?   Or is it too often read to mean that in the end, the very end, we will be engaged entirely in glorifying God and enjoying Him forever, but not until then?   

Fraid so.  Fraid that is often how it is read.  It doesn't seem to inspire believers to pursue the enjoyment of God in this life at any rate, though as I read it now that's what it should accomplish.

 Then I found The Christian Book of Mystical Verse, edited by Tozer, a kindle version for 99 cents.  His statement about how he chose the poetry he included in the book encourages me to high expectations.  He says primarily it reflects

...my own bent, though I have been guided somewhat by a few simple rules. First, all sentimental verse was excluded, along with everything homey and maudlin. The only healthy emotions are those aroused by great ideas, and even these must be restrained and purified by the Spirit of God or they will spend themselves in weak and sterile rhymes. Of such there is enough in the religious world; I think none will be found in this book.

An unexpected eagerness to hear God praised in verse surprises me.   God's lovers down the centuries possessing Him, possessed by Him, pass on their passion, capturing streams of living water from the mountains of the Bible, forming pools that draw the panting deer. 

As the deer panteth for the water, so my soul longeth after Thee.   -- Psalm 42

There's a song about it too, many versions of which are at You Tube.

If my breath quickens at the thought of reading this poetry about God it reassures me that He hasn't abandoned me after all.

How did the term "mysticism" come under such opprobrium in the Protestant churches?  Is it only because of those who did deviate from scripture?  So many more were true to scripture and Tozer makes clear that was a major criterion for his choices.  A Christian mystic, a genuine Christian mystic, is one who put more passion into the Christian life than others did.  That's basically it.   That deeper passion is expressed in lengthy times of prayer and devotional reading, including reading the Bible, and that lengthy time spent leads sometimes to supernatural experiences of God.  This isn't people starting out looking for experiences at all, however, this is people drawn by Biblical truth to more intense worship and seeking of God than others are, for whatever reason.   If spiritual and supernatural experiences occur they are God's reward for such intense devotion.  

It seems a shame that this pursuit isn't encouraged from the pulpit so that more people would be drawn in this same way to the deeper life.  It's there to be had.  It's in the scripture, it's just a matter of heart engagement.  

Certainly we are exhorted to spend time in prayer, but often it's in the context of getting people who hardly pray at all to pray at least a little more.   And I've needed that exhortation myself, sorry to say.   Certainly we are exhorted to love and adore God, and most Christians would say they do, but it seems to be very limited by the demands of daily life.  

But also by low expectations.  More time can always be made for whatever truly engages our hearts.  What would it take to draw more people to lengthier and deeper times with God?  You can't just criticize the lack of it, you can't just recommend more of it, somehow you have to inspire the motivation that is lacking.  What sort of preaching?   What sort of accommodations among God's people?  Somehow it has to be made clear that it is possible, that scripture calls us to it, that God Himself calls us to it, that God promises to draw near to those who seek Him diligently.  

He who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.  

Churches often set up retreats, usually for a long weekend in some place of natural beauty, and more prayer is usually encouraged in that context, but still it's mostly just a more intensive time of hearing preaching, interspersed with recreations of various sorts.  It's always seemed to me that a time of fasting should be encouraged and times of solitude, directed solitude perhaps, based on devotional scripture readings or the like.  Then group prayer and worship too, but not broken for "lunch" where the focus beomes the usual social chitchat, or a ball game or whatnot.   The point of a retreat is to deepen the Christian life, but except for spending more time overall in more or less spiritual pursuits, it is too fragmented to do much in the way of deepening spiritual life.  Surely people feel refreshed after such a retreat, but is the refrelshment much more spiritual than a good vacation would produce?

Where the Reformation took hold Luther disbanded the monasteries and convents, and no doubt for the best of reasons as nothing of much spiritual importance was going on there either.  Nevertheless, there were those that had provided spiritual inspiration and guidance down the centuries, and some form of provision for that purpose should be part of Protetant life as well.  

There have certainly been times in Protestant life that had a similarly encouraging effect on the spirtiual life.  Family devotions were often such an influence.  People would go home after Sunday service to spend the afternoon discussing the sermon and praying.  There may be some of that going on now, I hope so.   

     Genuine times of God-wrought revival, when God Himself comes down and takes possession of His people, are known for being so attractive that people don't want to leave church after the service, and often the service has already had to give way to outpourings of both penitential and devotional feeling in the congregation.  And others from around the community are drawn to join in so that there is a need for larger and larger spaces to accommodate them all.  They want to be in church, they don't want to leave, the Presence of God enraptures them.  

I'm finding it is possible to rebuild my lost spiritual life at least to some extent.  Spending more time in prayer and asking God specifically to increase my love for Him and my ability to mortify my sins.  So He hasn't deserted me.  Tears come frequently, both of sadness and of joy.  After my thoughts have wandered off to who-knows-where, some mundane concern, some political situation, when I bring my mind back to the thought of God my whole being is melted, the tensions in my body dissolve, I'm in a lovely peaceful state, even perhaps a bit of a "swoon." .  Just the thought.  As many of the mystic poets write, that's all it takes, just the thought of God to transport us into His presence or receive His peace.  This comes of course as a result of increased prayer and time seeking the Lord and it isn't going to happen otherwise.  "Jesus the very thought of Thee With sweetness fills my breast."  For me it's peace, for him sweetness.  Just the thought, just turning the mind to the idea of God, nothing more than that.  Some write of "gazing" on God.  I don't know if that is different from turning one's thought to Him or not.  Perhaps someday I'll know.

God Himself or His Interventions and His Gifts

 It is breaking my heart to read Tozer's Pursuit of God.  How did I fall away so far from this truth?  When I left the Charismatic Movement, was that the turning point?  I had to leave it, they were off in so many ways, and yet it's the only place in the Church where personal spiritual experience is taken for granted and encouraged.   The presence of God is often felt among them, yet there is so much mixture with counterfeit spiritualities and some really bad preaching it was a huge relief to find a church where the Bible was clearly and thoroughly preached.  However, the problem there was the complete  absence of spiritual experience and that familiar discouragement of it as if it was all counterfeit and there were no genuine expressions of it.  

Is that where I started to lose it?   Despite the solid biblical doctrine the church felt somehow carnal.  I didn't want to think of it that way, kept trying to tell myself I was being unfairly critical, but that impression never went away.  I was a doctrinal Calvinist by then but I remained attracted to the Holiness churches of the Wesleyan tradition.  It was the days of a resurgence of Reformed preaching, though, Calvinist preaching, and the other churches were doctrinally anemic.  They were also not promoting any spiritual experiences that might have outweighed their doctrinal deficiencies either.  

I found a good book on revival in the library of the Reformed church I'd begun to attend and found the personal experience kept alive in that context.   I even found someone in the church to pray with for revival every morning over the phone, and the presence of God was often with us.  Our prayer time lasted until she moved out of town.  But the church itself didn't seem to be much interested in pursuing revival.   There is a saying in such churches that "When God wants to send revival He sets His people praying."  It's true enough descriptively, but it amounts in the end to an excuse not to seek revival, a way of saying "Well, we aren't experiencing any great movement of the spirit of prayer so apparently God isn't interested in inspiring revival these days."  Well, thjere were at least two of us who wanted to pray for revival.  The saying just seems to be a way to excuse a lack of interest in spiritual life.  The church had a worldly feel,  a carnal feel.  Some charismatic churches on the other hand maintained a level of spiritual excitement, of eager prayer that spilled over into praying groups after the service.  But their revivals have no sense of the depths of  real encounter with the real God, they produce some supernatural phenomena of sorts but without any feel of holiness or awe or fear of God, and nothing of that love of God to be found in the mystics I've mentioned.   

.  In those years I gravitated to worldly occupations.  I had a job that required mostly packaging and sorting things and I was alone except for the occaional customer or occasional delivery, so I could listen to the radio.  I started listening to politics instead of Christian teachings.  Or I listened to both but the Christian teachings weren't on that spiritual level Tozer is talking about anyway. Besides poitics I spent time thinking through the Creation-Evolution issues.  I stopped the spiritual reading that had kept me enthralled with God for years, or more accurately it became sporadic:  I'd reach a point of disgust with myself that would impel me to reread some of my favorite spiritual writers, including books by Tozer.  It would fire me up for a time and then I'd just fall back into my other more worldly preoccupations.

And here I am again seeking personal spiritual revival, but this time I got so far away from God I got scared and have been determined not to lose my focus again.  So far so good, and the rediscovery of The Pursuit of God has been the best inspiration I could have found, becaise he's put his finger on at least some of the reason for my own inability to stick to the path, and why the churches are in such bad shape spiritually.  And here he's saying it again, in the third chapter of his book:

At the heart of the Christian message is God Himself waiting for His redeemed children to push in to conscious awareness of His Presence. That type of Christianity which happens now to be the vogue knows this Presence only in theory. It fails to stress the Christian’s privilege of present realization. According to its teachings we are in the Presence of God positionally, and nothing is said about the need to experience that Presence actually. The fiery urge that drove men like McCheyne is wholly missing. And the present generation of Christians measures itself by this imperfect rule. Ignoble contentment takes the place of burning zeal. We are satisfied to rest in our judicial possessions and for the most part we bother ourselves very little about the absence of personal experience.

I don't know to what extent my own experience is similar to others.  Over the years I never met anyone in any of the churches who had any interest in the mystics or the spiritual writers that so attract me, and the pursuit of God Himself has never come up in conversation that I recall.   (I did have the fascinating experience of "feeling" a spiritual connection, actually a "fragrance," with two people on separate occasions, which suggested to me that they shared my interest in the pursuit of God or "higher" experience (though there's no word that works best to stand for it).  But I didn't know those people and never had a conversation with them.  It was clear they recognized the same thing in me but it happened more or less at a distance so I never found out anything about them beyond what they conveyed in those encounters.  I could say more about that later, but my only point in bringing it up was to say there were at least these two other people I know of who shared something of what I'm talking about here. Since then I've lost my own spiritual "fragrance" and might no longer be recognizable to them).  

So my interest in these things isn't shared by many, and not by anyone I know personally, and there is also a prejudice against it from the pulpits that would keep me from seeking counsel about any of it except from books.  Tozer is such a refreshing voice on the subject as he sees it as the whole point of the Christian life.  He's had a major impact in the Christian world for many of his writings, but not this one that I know of.   Too bad, it's maybe the most important one.

The common distrust of this sort of experience does rather isolate a person.  Even in the charismatic circles the spiritual experiences were of a different sort, the exercise of the "gifts" in particular, which the Strange Fire Conference convinced me weren't God's gifts at all.  Nevertheless there were people in that movement whose deep prayer life did touch God and that was palpable.   

It's not that there is a lack of spiritual or supernatural experiences in the Church at large.  We hear quite frequently of how God has worked in supernatural ways in people's lives, and in which He engages on a personal level with them too.  But in thinking about this I realized that it's different from what I'm talking about.  In those cases God is the instrument of beneficial changes and guidance in their lives,  but the "mystical" or "higher" experience of God is the person's .craving for God Himself with the attempt to be immersed in Him in a way that ultimately abandons everything that benefits them in this life.  I've been so far from it for such a long time, but am again reminded that it's what I once wanted and sought and now I want to find it again, God willing, whatever little time I may have left.